Weird

de fasting month is already in de last phase. I'm quite sad it is coming to an end soon. I'm ready lookin 4wd for de next fastin month ;) I managed to improve (though a lil only) myself and be a better Muslimah. thanks to de Almighty, I managed to perform my duties as a Muslimah with more concentration.
thanks to Mama & LH too for makin me realise of my duties which I often neglect all dis while.
Lil Prof's determination in fasting & prayin daily also made me awake frm my long-dream. I realised that I must set a gd example 4 him since he always look up for me in almost evrythg so if I show de wrong way, he'll be walkin on de wrong path as well. I dont want that to happen. just like how much I want him to achieve academically, same goes to his Islamic studies.
nowadays, I'd seen many youngsters who took de wrong way and I'm so worried that my baby bro will end up like that too *astaghfirullah, nauzubillah min zalik* so I wanna make sure he receives both academic & Islamic education properly.

dis is de period where Muslims lookin 4 de night of Al-Qadr, includin me. I hope all my prayers are accepted by HIM.

and for almost a month as well, I'm havin sleepin prob. I cudnt sleep early or at least by midnight be4 wakin up again for my pre-dawn meal (sahur). most of de days (in de past 24 days), I didnt sleep all de way till my sahur and enter dreamland only after my morning prayer which is arnd 6am. and by 10 or 11am, I would already awake to start my daily life or when I have class in de morning, 7.30-8am is de wake-up time. imagine that, people.
my sleepin pattern is weird. and so my daily life activities. lacking of sleep really affect my daily life. and LH is so concerned and worried, so do Mama & myself of course.
my 4-besties once said that my daily cycle had changed where I'm so active at night, I cudnt deny, it is so true.
my body is lackin of rest and I hope to have a really gd rest, soon.
sneezing has been a MUST activity daily ;) I'm sure I'll fall sick soon. I was already sick a week ago due to this *sigh*

Lil Prof's concern really touched me. though he doesnt understand much but he made an effort to ask. some times I feel moody & enhausted but upon hearin dat sweet/soft voice, I jumped off de bed immediately. Lil prof has been my greatest cheer in de past 7-yrs.
LH tried his best to 'accompany' me on de phone at night but I want him to rest. mind u, he is a teacher and he needs enough rest esp for a very active teacher like him so I dont want bcoz of me, his works are affected. its ok dear ;)
bestie Luthfie always tries his best to talk/sms with me but he needs to work too. Mickey is not in town as he is on work attachment in Dubai ;) power la dok. Aida & Achan are de ones who usually 'teman' me since Achan is an insomniac while Aida is working in de evening shift for de entire Ramadhan. but its ok la honestly if no 1 is to 'teman' me, I understand and I'm used to it.
Mama too trying her best to keep me company but oh my, how can I let her do that. she is tired after a long day 'working' at home and I dont want her health to be affected.
no worries people, I still love u all despite de inability to keep me company ;)
PSP, Laptop & TV are my greatest companions for de 'lone moments'.
and yeah, I'm thankful to my werid sleepin patter too coz I started to realise that I can do my school works/assingments/presentations more peacefully with more concentration & determination. and dats de reason why I managed to pass-up all those works very much earlier from de actual deadline :).

sorry 4 de sloppy entry.
I wanna blog but my mind is nt working properly due de lack of rest/sleep. but I'm sure u readers can read it. I used simple english though with poor grammar ;) sorry.
I'll be back soon.
oh ya, Prof just cudnt find de right shoes for himself and dats mean de search continues. OMG, cerewet nye adik aku!

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