Tired Bee

oh oh, haha, I still manage to blog despite bein very busy with so many stuffs for Hari Raya & de Children's Day as well. both fall on de same day.

I'm busy cleanin de house for Raya, re-arranging things, throwin away unwanted ones till I threw away 1 of my notes, not purposely of course. dats me durin cleanin process, I will just grab whatever I see and at times, makin la mcm huru-hara when I got mad. lol.
Lil Prof keep askin me to iron his Baju Melayu, haha, he is 1 excited boy as he keeps on trying it along with his new pair of shoes.
alhamdulillah, all de preparations are done except for de cleanin which I think, selagi tak malam raya, selagi tu tak akan bersih. so spare de cleanin for tues' night.

Children's Day, OMG, I almost forget bout it. and lucky LH reminded me so we were like mad monkeys rushin here n there to look for stuffs to give to our students, my lil cousins, his nephews/nieces & our lil prof, of course!
we were lookin for sthg different thn de common ones, not de normal goodies or stationery set. we wanna give them sthg to eat and a thing that can be keep as souvenier. so for de tidbits, not in bag nor box, but we are usin plastic cup with High School Musical logo & casts printed on it, which costed $2.95 each, nt includin de tidbits where we planned to put in some sweets, jelly with nata-de-cocco, a kinder surprise (dat egg-shaped choc with small toys) and biscuit. and we attached a motivational book-mark too. then we wrapped with transparent wrappings ;) I already tried to wrap 1, and it looked gd ;)
our mums (me & his) were sayin that we are so compatible esp with our 'last-mins head'.

LH really looked good in his purple Baju Melayu (aww, terserlah ke-lelakian Melayu terakhir, lol). sungguh terpesona. well, he is a teacher and he usually in his formal attire and durin Racial Harmony, he wear a Japanese costume so I'm lookin 4wd to Raya to see him in traditional outfit. he doest look like Malay, many thought he is a Chinese padahal his dad is a Pakistani while mum is Indon-Malay and he once told me he didnt know whose face he inherited. well, not all children have their parents' face, kan? :)

well, they break fast at my place tadi.
they = besties (Luthfie, Aida, Achan, Mickey) & de 2-H (LH, Double-H)
to Mickey, thanks for comin ya though u just touched down frm Dubai just hours before.
it was a real great Iftar-ing with them after so long not gatherin together as everyone was busy with own commitments. so next meetin I guess will be durin Raya :)
we had so many foods (we are de foods' lovers).
Mama cooked Nasi Lemak completed with eggs, fried chicken, cucumber and of course, sambal ikan bilis. haha, her sambal is de best! betol tak sahabat2-ku? ;)
thn they bought murtabak, dengdeng, traditional kuih, donuts, macaroni & jelly cocktail.
Mama was 1 happy person too esp when knowin that their main purpose of comin was to visit her who sprained her ankle few days ago. looked very bad at first but lucky it is gettin better now after seein doctor.
thanks all. de routine bonding session :)

few Raya songs caused my tears flowing down. since my parents divorced, I'm so emotional when Raya is approachin & hearing those sad songs.
I keep rememberin de good old times with my once completed family durin Raya preparations where dad would keep disturbing Mama, de bunga-api sessions, etc.
dats all are really far from my life now. and I could only treasure those memories. while typing now, my tears flowin down ;) sebak sangat.
but those close to me keep reminding I'm still 1 lucky person where I have Mama, Prof, Family & Besties around to cheer me up. thanks people, million thanks.
behind de smile on my face, there are lots of sadness which I covered in order not to worry people esp Mama. I know she too, still rememberin those old times. I can accept de fact that dad is no longer under de same roof as us but I realised that its nt easy to cope with my feelings/emotions esp during dis festive period. I'm nt strong enough.
but Prof is de light of our life coz his smiles & laughters managed to keep us away from all those memories.
I hope to meet dad at his place on de eve of Hari Raya. please dad, spare some time.

well, I shall end here. my heart shattered.
I'll be back soon ya .. take care all :)

----------

" a loving single-parent family is better than a 'conventional' family where the parents hate each other and the father is a demagogue "