Tired Bee

oh oh, haha, I still manage to blog despite bein very busy with so many stuffs for Hari Raya & de Children's Day as well. both fall on de same day.

I'm busy cleanin de house for Raya, re-arranging things, throwin away unwanted ones till I threw away 1 of my notes, not purposely of course. dats me durin cleanin process, I will just grab whatever I see and at times, makin la mcm huru-hara when I got mad. lol.
Lil Prof keep askin me to iron his Baju Melayu, haha, he is 1 excited boy as he keeps on trying it along with his new pair of shoes.
alhamdulillah, all de preparations are done except for de cleanin which I think, selagi tak malam raya, selagi tu tak akan bersih. so spare de cleanin for tues' night.

Children's Day, OMG, I almost forget bout it. and lucky LH reminded me so we were like mad monkeys rushin here n there to look for stuffs to give to our students, my lil cousins, his nephews/nieces & our lil prof, of course!
we were lookin for sthg different thn de common ones, not de normal goodies or stationery set. we wanna give them sthg to eat and a thing that can be keep as souvenier. so for de tidbits, not in bag nor box, but we are usin plastic cup with High School Musical logo & casts printed on it, which costed $2.95 each, nt includin de tidbits where we planned to put in some sweets, jelly with nata-de-cocco, a kinder surprise (dat egg-shaped choc with small toys) and biscuit. and we attached a motivational book-mark too. then we wrapped with transparent wrappings ;) I already tried to wrap 1, and it looked gd ;)
our mums (me & his) were sayin that we are so compatible esp with our 'last-mins head'.

LH really looked good in his purple Baju Melayu (aww, terserlah ke-lelakian Melayu terakhir, lol). sungguh terpesona. well, he is a teacher and he usually in his formal attire and durin Racial Harmony, he wear a Japanese costume so I'm lookin 4wd to Raya to see him in traditional outfit. he doest look like Malay, many thought he is a Chinese padahal his dad is a Pakistani while mum is Indon-Malay and he once told me he didnt know whose face he inherited. well, not all children have their parents' face, kan? :)

well, they break fast at my place tadi.
they = besties (Luthfie, Aida, Achan, Mickey) & de 2-H (LH, Double-H)
to Mickey, thanks for comin ya though u just touched down frm Dubai just hours before.
it was a real great Iftar-ing with them after so long not gatherin together as everyone was busy with own commitments. so next meetin I guess will be durin Raya :)
we had so many foods (we are de foods' lovers).
Mama cooked Nasi Lemak completed with eggs, fried chicken, cucumber and of course, sambal ikan bilis. haha, her sambal is de best! betol tak sahabat2-ku? ;)
thn they bought murtabak, dengdeng, traditional kuih, donuts, macaroni & jelly cocktail.
Mama was 1 happy person too esp when knowin that their main purpose of comin was to visit her who sprained her ankle few days ago. looked very bad at first but lucky it is gettin better now after seein doctor.
thanks all. de routine bonding session :)

few Raya songs caused my tears flowing down. since my parents divorced, I'm so emotional when Raya is approachin & hearing those sad songs.
I keep rememberin de good old times with my once completed family durin Raya preparations where dad would keep disturbing Mama, de bunga-api sessions, etc.
dats all are really far from my life now. and I could only treasure those memories. while typing now, my tears flowin down ;) sebak sangat.
but those close to me keep reminding I'm still 1 lucky person where I have Mama, Prof, Family & Besties around to cheer me up. thanks people, million thanks.
behind de smile on my face, there are lots of sadness which I covered in order not to worry people esp Mama. I know she too, still rememberin those old times. I can accept de fact that dad is no longer under de same roof as us but I realised that its nt easy to cope with my feelings/emotions esp during dis festive period. I'm nt strong enough.
but Prof is de light of our life coz his smiles & laughters managed to keep us away from all those memories.
I hope to meet dad at his place on de eve of Hari Raya. please dad, spare some time.

well, I shall end here. my heart shattered.
I'll be back soon ya .. take care all :)

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" a loving single-parent family is better than a 'conventional' family where the parents hate each other and the father is a demagogue "

Lizard Hunting

I have a new-found hobby, along with my lil prof, that is lizard hunting at home. sounds weird, aite? dats us. I really hate lizards la, geli kan but prof is 1 keen hunter. he was willing to sacrifice his sleeping time just to trap de lizard(s). OMG, and I dun know why I was willing to join him along. we made so much noise during de hunting even when de time was already past midnight. haha, and Mama would be 1 angry mum upon seein us doing that nonsense stuff and makin so much noise. afterall, Mama is scared of lizards as well. she cudnt see it or she would scream on top of her voice, histeria! lol ;)

finally, prof had found his shoes, after so many days of searching. OMG. macam nak beli kasut kahwin. out of all de shoes in stores, out of all brands, he chose a Disney shoes which costed $24.95 only. alahai, adikkk kuuu .. kids will always be kids. even how much he loves more 'big' brands, at certain time, they would go back to what they supposed to have. I suggested him a Nike shoes as he is a big crazy fan of it, there were few different types but he didnt want and few other shoes with characters like Batman, Ben10, etc.
haha, finally, he chose a simple but very nice pair. a mixture of blue & yellow. de orange 1 was nicer but he prefers be former and wat he said gave me, and even Mama, a huge shock.
"adek chose dis colour coz it reminds me of anje(dats my nick) & ----(my ex boyfie, dat 'old man' in de lions' den). adek miss de old times we had together, de 4 of us. but adek tak kisah, adek happy when anje always smile when u with Mr.LH. adek pon sayang Mr.LH just like ----"
OMG, Izattt, anje love u sooo much baby! thanks 4 de understandin though u r too young to understand exactly what is happening. anje promise I'll bring u to see ---- soon ok.
honestly, I'm still in gd term with him even after de break-up is all bcoz of Izat & Mama. but at times, my heart shattered whenever thinkin back of our broken dreams.
I believe I can cope, and I'm a much happier person now. in LH, I found a true man which only me know de definition ;)

well, bro smiley is badly sick. may he recovers soon ya ;)
de worst sick ever as he claimed.

bumped into stags' lil master (who? figure it out), oh my cute BIG bro and Izat's 'bestpren'. oh ya, Mama's 'cilipadi'. chatted a while at de bus interchange as he just came bck frm training. haha, I just got 2 knw dat stags are havin their trainings after break-fast ;)
I feel good to meet him, refreshing all those gd old days.
cute as ever la kamu ...

well dats all I guess, I'll be back soon.
preparation for Raya is almost done. just few more touch-up, everythg will be in gd shape.
take care all.

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" Extreme hopes are born of extreme misery "

Weird

de fasting month is already in de last phase. I'm quite sad it is coming to an end soon. I'm ready lookin 4wd for de next fastin month ;) I managed to improve (though a lil only) myself and be a better Muslimah. thanks to de Almighty, I managed to perform my duties as a Muslimah with more concentration.
thanks to Mama & LH too for makin me realise of my duties which I often neglect all dis while.
Lil Prof's determination in fasting & prayin daily also made me awake frm my long-dream. I realised that I must set a gd example 4 him since he always look up for me in almost evrythg so if I show de wrong way, he'll be walkin on de wrong path as well. I dont want that to happen. just like how much I want him to achieve academically, same goes to his Islamic studies.
nowadays, I'd seen many youngsters who took de wrong way and I'm so worried that my baby bro will end up like that too *astaghfirullah, nauzubillah min zalik* so I wanna make sure he receives both academic & Islamic education properly.

dis is de period where Muslims lookin 4 de night of Al-Qadr, includin me. I hope all my prayers are accepted by HIM.

and for almost a month as well, I'm havin sleepin prob. I cudnt sleep early or at least by midnight be4 wakin up again for my pre-dawn meal (sahur). most of de days (in de past 24 days), I didnt sleep all de way till my sahur and enter dreamland only after my morning prayer which is arnd 6am. and by 10 or 11am, I would already awake to start my daily life or when I have class in de morning, 7.30-8am is de wake-up time. imagine that, people.
my sleepin pattern is weird. and so my daily life activities. lacking of sleep really affect my daily life. and LH is so concerned and worried, so do Mama & myself of course.
my 4-besties once said that my daily cycle had changed where I'm so active at night, I cudnt deny, it is so true.
my body is lackin of rest and I hope to have a really gd rest, soon.
sneezing has been a MUST activity daily ;) I'm sure I'll fall sick soon. I was already sick a week ago due to this *sigh*

Lil Prof's concern really touched me. though he doesnt understand much but he made an effort to ask. some times I feel moody & enhausted but upon hearin dat sweet/soft voice, I jumped off de bed immediately. Lil prof has been my greatest cheer in de past 7-yrs.
LH tried his best to 'accompany' me on de phone at night but I want him to rest. mind u, he is a teacher and he needs enough rest esp for a very active teacher like him so I dont want bcoz of me, his works are affected. its ok dear ;)
bestie Luthfie always tries his best to talk/sms with me but he needs to work too. Mickey is not in town as he is on work attachment in Dubai ;) power la dok. Aida & Achan are de ones who usually 'teman' me since Achan is an insomniac while Aida is working in de evening shift for de entire Ramadhan. but its ok la honestly if no 1 is to 'teman' me, I understand and I'm used to it.
Mama too trying her best to keep me company but oh my, how can I let her do that. she is tired after a long day 'working' at home and I dont want her health to be affected.
no worries people, I still love u all despite de inability to keep me company ;)
PSP, Laptop & TV are my greatest companions for de 'lone moments'.
and yeah, I'm thankful to my werid sleepin patter too coz I started to realise that I can do my school works/assingments/presentations more peacefully with more concentration & determination. and dats de reason why I managed to pass-up all those works very much earlier from de actual deadline :).

sorry 4 de sloppy entry.
I wanna blog but my mind is nt working properly due de lack of rest/sleep. but I'm sure u readers can read it. I used simple english though with poor grammar ;) sorry.
I'll be back soon.
oh ya, Prof just cudnt find de right shoes for himself and dats mean de search continues. OMG, cerewet nye adik aku!

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" Night is the mother of thoughts "

Finally ...

well, after more thn a week of not watchin soccer at stadium, I finally made my trip to Hougang stdm to watch de match between Sengkang Dolphins & Tampines Stags.
when these both teams are in action, I found it hard to skip de match.
futhermore, hehe, not showin off but just a lil fact, my 2-ex-boyfie were playin, 1 each for de stags & dolphins ;)

planned to go with Mama, Prof & LH. but LH backed-out since Prof had so many homeworks to be done so LH chose to look after him at my place and accompanied him while we were out. thanks so much, LH sayang.

I'm so lazy to talk bout de match but a thing 4 sure, they shared de point. they drew 1-all. stags took de lead thru Amri early in de 2nd half but de dolphins equalised thru de captain; Simic. another nice shot frm Simic.
Fara almost lose his cool during de match but thumbs up, dude. u managed to control de anger. and coach Vorawan who was on de sideline, keep shoutin at him to go away frm that dolphin no.15. I just love Vorawan style. its hard 2 elaborate but as someone who know him frm his Sembawang's days, I cnt never doubt his coaching ability, a great father-figure.
sengkang no.15 is a real TROUBLE. I just cnt tahan his attitude. he even asked Fara to fight with him after de half-time whistle. eh botak, kalau berani sgt, gaduh ah depan referee, dont wait at half-time.
Taqi was nt at his best. ok alryte Taqi, ref is always right but u guys are nt perfect, FOR SURE. I dont knw what is de criteria in order to be booked by him *sigh* well, dats Spore referee, a country which produced a world-class ref like Shamsul Maidin.
cakap pon tak gune, tembak pon tak kene ;)

dats all, just a short entry.
I will be back soon ;)
on de other note, I started to feel that LH is de man. may he is de 1 who truly mean for me.
I'm tired of getting de wrong partner again, and again.
this time round, my partner is shorter thn me ;)

to all my besties, u guys rock! lookin 4wd to our iftar session ;)
after more thn 10-yrs, de frenship is still blooming. I'm lovin it.

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" It is the plain women who know about love,the beautiful women are too busy being fascinating "

*I'm amused with de quotes LH SMS-ed me mins ago*

Plan Changed

I'm nt feelin really well since last nyte so plans are changed. I need to give up de long journey to woodlands, but I needed to do lots of compromising with my lil prof be4 he agreed to look for his shoes at other places.
so I decided to skip Roslan's show dis evening and iftar at Kartini is cancelled as well, reluctantly. I can go on with de original plan if I want to but I'm nt goin to do sthg that will bring bad effect to myself. I'll get drowsy/nausea easily when I'm nt feelin well.

so here goes de new plan,
shoppin @ East Point mall (historical tu ;p), hopefully I can get all de shoppin 4 shoes done. HariRaya shoes for him, me & mama. and yah I wanna buy a new pair of sandals for him too. his legs are growin fast. and my lil prof is 1 cerewet boy. only 7 yet so fussy so I cnt imagine how it gonna be when he is 17.
then we will break fast at de Thai-Chinese restaurant there, I dont knw whats de restaurant's name. haha, but okla I knw they serve gd foods.
after our meals, most likely I'l be headin to Tampines Mall/Century Square. lookin 4 some stuffs and whatever I can grab there includin few t-shirts for dat lil prof. hehe, de fulus is still thick in de wallet ;)
well, we'll be headin 2 Geylang on Sunday. I'm preparing myself for a packed bazaar & TKC. hope that my patience level will increase as well ;) lol.

dats all 4 now, I'll be back with more updates.

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" Feminism is the radical notion that women are human beings "

Rajin-ness

I just have de eagerness of updatin my blog. most probably bcoz I dont have much works to be done since I already submitted majority of my assignment/projects and class schedule is so manage-able in de month of Sept. lesser time in class but more works to complete ;) well, dat is a challenge.

welcome home to all de Protectors esp Bro.Smiley :) they touched down early on thursday morning, arnd 7am (any 1 to confirm dis?) but I guess de time is correct la.

I'm already in de mood of Hari Raya but no worries, I still observe de Ramadhan & nt forgettin my Terawih prayer.
weekend is knocking again and I already have plan to fulfill it ;) no outing with besties nor HIM but I reserved dis weekend for my family; my Mama & baby bro Lil Prof and yeah, my sweet cousin; Fifi, will join us dis weekend.
shopping and more shopping. heading to Geylang (I wont go at night coz I'm nt willing to face de crowds just for de sake of de colourful lights) thn to Causeway Point to look for Prof's shoes (ntah kasut ape dia nak kat sana as he asked me to bring him there). well, good idea frm him coz I'll be able to go to Bazaar Raya Utara just next to CWP to catch my fav, Roslan Mohd's performance. oohhh it has been long people so I'm nt goin 2 miss it. his performance will take place at 5.30 and will end be4 Maghrib so we'll head to Parkway Parade after dat to break fast at Kartini Indonesian Restaurant. I'll make a reservation so we are not goin 2 waste much time of waiting :) I hate waiting esp during fasting mth. boleh jadi 'tornado' nanti ..
actually I'm craving of Mad Jack (haha, Maj!!! u caused that) but Mama is not so keen with western food so I mengalah (mcm baik gitu kan ;p) and we chose Kartini as we are so satisfied with de quality of foods & service :) regular customer tau!

a little on Champs Lge, sorry peeps, nt in de mood to blog much bout it.
Liverpool won over Marseille 2-1 (goals scored by captain marvel, Stevie-G). Chelsea won as well but hoahahaha, ManU DREW AJE. defending champ failed to register a win ;) and Arsenal drew as well.

dats all 4 now, I'll be back soon.

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" For some, shopping is an art, for others it is a sport. It can be a vice and it can be a cause. Some love it, some hate it. Rarely is someone indifferent "

AFC Cup

let me summarise all de 4 matches of de AFC Cup QF.
haha, I didnt watch any 1 of them live but dun worry, i did my homeworks and as usual, I have many sources 2 rely on. representatives frm Spore (HomeU & SAF) & Msia (Perak & Kedah) suffered diff fate :).

scoreline :
Perak 0-2 Safa SC
Dempo SC 1 - 1 Home United
SAF FC 2 - 1 Al Nahda
Muharraq 5 - 0 Kedah

for de 1st match, not much I could hope for coz even be4 de match was kicked-off, I didnt put any hope on Perak based on de probs they are facing off de fields. nt forgetting they only fielded 1 foreign player and injury crisis is troubling them.
ended de match as de loosing side but with a very much respectable scoreline, they deserved some credits. another fact, if u were at de match itself, u could see how much different between de body size of de players from both teams.
and yeah, KJ was taken off as early as de 15th min due to hamstring injury. poor boy. his recurring injury is really troubling him and he is really desperate to regain his fitness as his legs are itching to kick de ball. but honestly, in my view, de coach over-used him coz at 1 moment during de recently concluded Msia League, he was playing amidst de pain in so many matches and I stil remember very well how he complained to me bout de pain he needed to bear during those time. I pity him. recover soon, dude. lookin 4wd to see u soon ;) I miss those gr8 moments during de hols ;)

2nd match was all de way in Hydrabad, India. obviously I was nt there ;) bro.smiley played in de 1st 45. and HomeU took de lead be4 de halftime thru Rosman Sulaiman. wat a surprise scorer. and if I'm nt mistaken, bro.smiley was involved in de set-up of dis goal ;) but not so lucky for them coz that India club equalised few mins be4 de match ended.
but a thing 4 sure, they return to Spore not empty-handed. they bring home 1-point along with a precious away goal as a 'bekalan' for de 2nd leg on 23rd Sept.

3rd match, SAF won so wats de big deal? a comfortable win? oooh no, it is far frm ideal. a very lucky escape ;) 2 SAF players were sent-off and their opposition has an away goal 2 bring home so I'm sure its nt gonna be easy for de warriors in de return leg.
but still, I wish them luck coz they are bringing Spore's flag & pride.

and yeah de last match and it kept me waiting for so long to confirm de final score (elok sgt la kamu tu cik abg kenari) and I was damn shocked and madly surprised. oh come on, I know Kedah was playin against de middle-east team but they r nt that bad to be beaten with that scoreline. I didnt xpect that. tough luck, guys.
but credits to de coach Mr.Azraai Khor for believing in his young players and drafted them in de team, let them play & gave them chance one after another to showcase their abilities. look to de team, most of them are de youngsters like Khyril Muhymeen, Fazliata, Helmi Eliza, Samransak, Fadly Baharum, Sabree Abu & Badrol Bakhtiar. and majority of those on de bench are those in de feeder squad, not de senior team.

I shall end here, it has been a very long entry.
I'll be back with my review on de Champions Lge and other stuffs as well.
stay tune & take care ;)

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" Individual commitment to a group effort - that is what makes a team, a company, a society and a civilization work "

Easily Frustrated

OMG, what is happening to me seh. I'm feeling back OK now, back to my normal self but I dont knw why I'm easily frustrated. by? LH, de man in my life, my companion. he didnt do anythg wrong but I'm bein so sensitive recently.

just hours ago, I saw him with a married female colleague. he told me days ago he has a program to attend dis evening along with that colleague. and I knw I sound foolish to be jelaous of that lady. she is blissfully married. but I found it hard to cope upon seein him walking with another lady. but LH is not a flirt nor a playboy. and he is nt a man who like to take advantage of de opposite sex. I'm aware of that and my besties told me that I should consider myself lucky and there is nthg 2 worry about. but easier said, I'm a paranoid :)
I admit I'm nt an ideal GF.
oh God, please help me. guide me to a positibe way.

he has been 1 patient man all dis while till NOW, his tolerance impressed me de most. he gave in to me on so many times & it is hard 2 see him angry. even he is 1 strict teacher, he is a different person when he is with me. I treasure every bits & pieces.
there is no exact word to describe him but he is 1 GOOD man. de word GOOD that I used here consists thousands of definitions.
there were few times Double-H had arguments with him, criticisng him, bla bla bla, but he remained silent. that is just truly him, he taught me that arguin with a fool (or like fool) proves there are 2.

he went thru lots of obstacles to be with me, and we faced so many rough patches to be at where we r now but his perseverance proved to be de most important 'ingredient'.
I'm a happier lady now, and I hope more happiness will come.
and as what he claimed, he is 1 happy & better man after knowin me, I'm glad 2 hear that.
I promise I'll change. and he always guide me along de way.
he never see my imperfection but he always look to de perfect side of me.
he never complain bout what I'm lackin but he is thankful of what I am now.
he is proud of me and of course, I'm super proud of him.

I pray for my happiness with him. I pray that he'll be de 1 for me. I pray that if he is de 1, I want God to open my heart for him.
Mama's blessings are important. and she'd given that 2 us. doa' seorang ibu adalah yg terbaik and that is what all children need most.

I'll end here as de time 2 break fast is approaching, I'll be back soon.

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" the greatest glory in living lies not in never falling but in rising every time we fall "

Spoilt Weekend

shopping for home needs at IKEA

explore de bazaar @ Geylang as I havent been there yet since Ramadhan started

buying traditional clothes for HariRaya for myself, Mama & Lil Prof

shopping for other Raya stuffs like shoes. de 3 of us r too choosy when buying shoes. dat lil boy kan dah besar so he has his own taste now ;)

trip to VivoCity for Ben&Jerry session with lil prof & LH

go to Bazaar Raya Utara @ Woodlands to go for food hunting & watch Sabby and de other Anugerettes '07 performance.

all those above WERE my plans for de weekend. but sadly for me, all ARE CANCELLED. I have no choice coz I fall sick again. body's temperature is increasing and nose is 'heavy' now. and my body is too weak to go outdoor. I'm stil fasting though, kuatkan semangat.
kind of frustrated when I need to let go all my plans, or at least postpone it for another a week. hope all de Raya preparations will be done just on time.

sorry my lovely lil prof, this sis of urs MUST turn down ur wish even if I'm nt sick. he wanted to send his 'big-bro' off at de airport, mati-mati dia nak, sampai merajuk. but I didnt let him go coz it is IMPOSSIBLE for me to be there, haha. and I want lil prof to learn that he needs to respect other people's decision as well. I dont want to keep on following his way and he'l end up becoming 1 stubborn boy. he is already 1 now so I dont want to add more damage ;)

Mama is cooking few dishes at home.
Gulai Nenas. Rendang Daging. sweet-sour sliced fish.
Yum-Yum. and she is going to de bazaar at de void-deck to buy some kuih, etc.

well, I shall end here to take a short nap.
I'll b back real soon with more updates.
goodbye, bro smiley. see u soon.
and yeah Arippp! gue kangen same lu la. recover frm ur injury soon hah ;)
:-@ <--- emotion when u r doin ur 'BIG BIZNES' in de toilet, that is what Arip said.
haha, period. *inside joke*. his SMS-es cured my boredom.

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" optimism is joyful searching, pessimism is a prison of fear and a clutching at illusionary safety "

Bestie

met up with bestie Luthfie after school yesterday. and he was all smilin waiting for me on his bike. OMG, I miss that smile so much. I last c him on de 2nd day of Ramadhan, dat was about 8-days ago.
well, finally, managed to have a day out with him, only. I always lookin 4wd to outings with him coz there r lots stuffs to be told & shared, strictly with him ONLY.

we went for mini shoppin spree at Bugis. I bought a bag for HariRaya ;) and another sporty bag for daily use, particularly to school. was lookin for a nice watch but failed to find 1 so gave it a miss la. Luth bought shoes (again?) and few candles for his bedroom's use. speakin bout candles, I found out that I'm runnin out of stock and regretted for nt buying yesterday.

thn we break fast at swensens, haha not de 1st choice though but settled with it after runnin out of choice. lol. great meals, wonderful companion.
we shared so many things while havin our meals and once again, I realised how lucky I am to have a bestie like Luth. I'm grateful for dis gift frm God.
lepak at Suntec after dat, and I swear la Luth, I had a truly gr8 time with u. people might nt understand de frenship that we shared but let them be coz we know ourselves best.
thanks again for de time and treats too. *hugs*

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my emotions are still disjointed & disturbed. but sincerely, I'm feelin better now after sharin it with bestie (who know me inside-out) everythg. I feel better after that, couple up with his comforts, advices & de warmth of his hug. I feel so loved & safe whnver he is by my side.

part of our conversations :

him : i feel bad, i'm nt de bestest of fren

me : huh? why?

me : kau slalu de bestest la .. no 1 is better thn u

him : ye ke? yela I'm nt by ur side when u r down

me : hey, u r nt, ur smses r my loyal companion

him : sori tau , k?

me : eh takdela, aku ok

me : Luth, u have works to be done, aku faham

me : keje shift lagi

him : thanks *smilin widely*

when he sent me home, we departed with a big hug.
and I felt the most sincere hug frm a guy. hug filled with loves & concerns.

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I hope 2 be back normal soon. I fully accept that this is part of God's tests for me in dis holy month. insya-Allah, everythg will be fine.

to my other besties (wak achan, aida, mickey), u guys r equally loved & important too ya. I appreciate all de concerns. and I'm sure u guys r understandin enuf on y Luth always has de upper-hands :)
u guys, along with Luth, are de most wondeful people for me.

LH, thanks again for de patience.
yes, me & him are back in gd term. alhamdulillah. he is taking care of my heart so carefully. terharu sgt. lets hope for more gd times together ya ;)

Double-H, please stop with de nonsense. if u dont stop, I wont stop callin u a stalker.
I dare u to go and ask him directly bout that 'intimate' nonsense u were talkin bout.
we shall meet up soon, ya? ;)

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bro.smiley & gang are lving for India .. bon voyage! and have a safe trip to n frm. may u guys come back with a victory ya ;) I'll b supporting all de way frm here ..

dats all 4 now, will be back soon.
and I have dozen of plans for de weekend.

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" Each friend represents a world in us which is possibly not born until they arrive and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born "

Worst Day

yesterday was really a terrible day for me. I wondered why & what was de reason till it went terribly wrong. my emotion was like a roller-coaster ride & everythg just didnt turn out well.

started de day with an argument with LH. no thanks 2 myself, who just again, failed 2 control my anger. I vented my anger out to him, who was totally innoncence. OMG, I'm totally menyesal. all dis while, he has been de most patient 1, dealing with my stubborness & unpredictable behaviours day after day. he was 1 dissapointed man that morning but he didnt take long to say sorry where sincerely I feel that he doesnt need to do so.
dear, ketulusan hati u is too pure till at certain point, I feel that I didnt deserve it. but still, u persuade me that it will be fine. guide me along de way, dear, if I ever go off de track. u mean a lot to me.

later on dat day, went to meet bro.smiley after school. only 2 find out dat he forgot to bring what he supposed to pass me. imagine that? I was fasting and I was truly disjointed after school but still, I feel I cudnt bear to vent my anger at him. he has been de most wonderful bro to me all dis while so I accepted his excuse.
bro, I was truly touched with ur effort to get for me dat thing till at de very last mins. and I realised, how much I'd troubled u. sorry for that.

I have no mood to update bout de match between Albirex & HomeU. but they drew 1-1.
I'm sorry to whoever it may concern of I did behave 'strangely' & cudnt control my emotion. esp to Mama, I'm so sorry. I just realised how much I hurt her yesterday.

I'm so sensitive dis past few days, help me.
I'll be back soon.

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"It is human nature to want to go back and fix or change things that we regret"

Dad

how have u been, dad? I miss u. esp in de mth of Ramadhan, I wish I could break fast together with u along with lil prof. I'm craving for an iftar session with u. can u remember when was de last time we had our meal together? at times, my heart shattered. u promised us that u wont neglect us but, what is happening now is far frm ideal.

I just cudnt deny de fact that u r my dad, my blood. I cudnt deny too that I'm angry, dissapointed & frustrated with u but a thing 4 sure, it didnt last forever. I cant hate u coz Mama always remind me it is very wrongful deed. I still have some respect 4 u though my broken heart is yet to be mend even after 6-yrs.

dad, pls realise, pls open ur heart & eyes ... we r urs. who should we turn to if our own blood turned us away?

my emotion is in need of 'renovation'.

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"I cannot think of any need in childhood as strong as the need for a father’s protection"

Iftar

I had gr8 time with my family during de Iftar session @ Wak Koko house. thanks 4 inviting us ya. it was time to break fast together, time to catch up with cousins & have fun!
with everyone busy with our own life, time like dis is de best 1 to assemble & tighten de bond, esp for a family like my mum's, which is not that big ;)

foods were uncountable. there were murtabak, hotdog roll, gado-gado, chicken wings, porridge, traditional Malay kuih-kuih, dates, banana, fruits cocktail and de list goes on! da mcm buffet kat hotel la gitu. seriously, I was having hard time choosing de foods coz during de fasting mth, I seldom eat much and I'm really careful with my daily dosage of foods.
and yeah, I performed my Maghrib's prayer very early, soon after I ate some dates & had a cup of drink. better to pray 1st thn after eating coz, silap langkah, dah kenyang, sembahyang pon lupa :)

had dozens of fun with cousins & aunts and I was pretty disapointed coz nt all were there. almost all de uncles were working and few cousins were nt there as well due to other matters. I wish we could have a COMPLETE get-together-session but okla, at least la rather thn nthg at all.

left Wak Koko's house at 11+, and I was damn tired by thn. reached home past midnight and I'm completely feelin fresh after cleaning up myself. and dats why I'm still awake at dis hour and I plan to stay awake till my pre-dawn meal (sahur).
Mama was like, duhhh, askin me why I'm stil awake and glued infront of my lappie whereas I promised nt to spend much time on it. haha, thn she went to sleep along with lil prof.

oh yeah, be4 I end, prime lge result : stags 1 protectors 3
yay! bro.smiley won and guess what, he scored a goal. well done! and hope de pain will heal soon k? take care and have more rest ya :) be good!

dats all 4 now, more posts comin up soon.

Interesting Protectors

I went to Bishan stdm for de game btween HomeU de protectors & Gombak de bulls. it was de 4th day of Ramadhan and it was de 1st day I break my fast outside.
as usual, I was expecting Nasi Sambal Goreng at Bishan stdm but, I was dissapointed coz it was not 'in store' during fasting mth. frust rabak seh! futhermore, I didnt buy any heavy food/meal. lucky Mama brought some home-cooked porridge so I was spared frm starving. while Lil Prof, biasela, tak cerewet when it comes to foods, so he settled for Nasi Lemak. yeah, we bought some snacks frm Old Chang Kee & Polar too.

de match started well, and it was real interesting match frm de beginning. lots of action frm de kick-off and I dare 2 say, de bulls were like mad monkeys. failed to keep possession, failed to match de excellence of de protectors turned them to attention seekers. trying to attract de ref as much as possible, fell on de slightest challenge & refused to admit fouls. truly, they were lacking of sportmanship.
sorry old-neighbour, it was a fact and u as de captain, failed to organise ur mates well. and for me de 2 sending off were so great & both players (both are bulls) deserved that. esp Obatola, who is A BIG DRAMA KING. it was nt de 1st time I spotted him playing like that, sakit mata gue!
thumbs up to de protectors who played all their hearts out. they played damn well. and they made the match interesting & lively.
3-points, 3-goals in de bag. goals were from Jiayi & Ludo (2).

bro.smiley is still out frm action, stil recovering .. poor poor him. nvm bro, I believe u'll get back in shape & full fitness soon :)

dats all 4 now, there is a prime lge match later beetween stags & protectors. and bro.smiley will b playing. all de best! score 1 for me ya?
I'm nt goin 2 de match as I have a family ocassion later at aunt's house.
will be back w more updates.
take care all!

Ramadhan

I'm welcoming de holy month of Ramadhan, open-heartedly. month full of blessings. de fasting month which ALL MUSLIMS MUST observe & respect.

I hope to be a better Muslimah & I'm determined to change to be a better person.
as age grows annually, I realised I need some changes in life.
I admit sincerely, all dis while I'm nt really religious though it is a fact that I spent 10-yrs attending religious sch.
I take things lightly and again, I admit that i did skip my 5-times daily prayers & I did some other things which are supposed nt to be done by a Muslim/Muslimah.
I'm nt ashamed to admit all de sins I'd committed coz by hiding, it'll make me a hypocrite, and thats really not me. seriously, I show my good & bad side.
I'm sure that God will guide me along de way, insya-Allah.

happy fasting to all my Muslims' frens & blog readers, may we stay healthy throughout de entire month.

dats all 4 now, and yeah, readers dearest, expect lesser updates frm me dis month due to de fasting month. I'll spend lesser time online as there are few other more important stuffs to be done, e.g: Terawih Prayer.
and Mama will not be soo happy too if I keep gluing myself infront of my PC/laptop.
I'll be back with more posts, for sure.
keep waiting ya ;)

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*patience will achieve more than force*

Teacher's Day

Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers, includin myself, and de other teachers wanna-be.
this is a continuous post from de prev 1 on Teacher's Day.

I will like to take this opportnity to thank all my teachers/lecturers/tutors; current & former, for all de deeds, advices & of course, education. I wont forget any single of them, even if they only taught me for a while.
they are de light of my life, and bcoz of them, I'm at where I'm now.

to my Mama, my 1st ever teacher, u r always de best. u r my source of inspiration & I dont know how can I thank u bcoz what u'd done, doing now and goin to do, are too much. a never ending 1.
I want u 2 know that I appreciate all that, no doubt. I might seldom express my feelings/emotions, pls know Mama, u r always in my heart. de loves I have 4 u is incomparable & irreplacable.

to Mr.LH, enjoy this special day ya :) having someone as inspirational as u close to me is really a bless. I'm inspired with ur dedications & I'm motivated to work harder to succeed.
thank u for all de helps throughout my learning journey :)

till here thn, will be back soon :)

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Teaching is one of the noblest of professions.

It requires an adequate preparation, training, patience, devotion and a deep sense of responsibility.

Those who mold the human mind have wrought not for time but for eternity.