A Year After

27th Nov was a public holiday for de Deepavali celebration. so here is my belated wish to my Indian/Hindu friends & neighbours.

accompanied LH to 2 houses of his Indian colleagues who was organising open-house and since Raya is still on, we went to a couple of his Malay colleagues' houses. all visits were de short but sweet ones and we took only about 4-hrs to visit all de 6 houses. he drove his newly-born Hyundai Tucson, like finally man, he changed to that car which is my fav! haha, LH & Double-H are driving de same car though with diff colours :)

and on dis 27th too, we exchanged our first HI. dat was last year at de school where he is teaching and where lil prof is gettin his education. I still remember how blur I was since I seldom enter that school even Mama is already de school volunteer back thn. then he greeted me and he ushered me to de school hall where Mama & lil prof was waiting. padahal, Mama dah kenal dia dulu ;) oh ya, I went to de school at that time for Pri.1 orientation day.
after de briefing & expalanations by de school's principal, vice-principal & HOD-s, we were brought to de kids' respective class where de kids were already in there (gettin to know their new school process) and were introduced to class/form-teacher. OMG, I got another shock as LH is de teacher who is in charge of my bro's class. gempak kejap. and he was already giving me a kind of cheeky stare with that broad smile flashed on his face.
and from there everythg started to blossom though at 1 time, I chose another man instead of him coz I thought de former was a better partner thn him but I made a wrong choice and left broken-hearted. but who picked me up? this man, this teacher whom I rejected once who gave me all sorts of motivations & inspirations that i really needed in order to move on. till now, never once he hurt me and betray my trust.

so after de deepa-raya visitings I stated above, we went for a date, an unplanned 1 coz at 1st I supposed to attend another event but Mama bein an understanding mum as always, excuse me from that event. thanks Mama, gue sayang banget sama kamu ;)
we watched a movie, High School Musical 3, which made me feel really young. watch dis movie, it is really great & worth ur money. me & LH love HSM a lot (nt forgettin lil prof & mama too) and we really enjoyed de movie.
then we had our dinner at suntec where he passed me a card with a teddy I almost dropped my tears when I read de card upon readin the poems he wrote. and there was a moment when our conversations went like this :

*him* I never thought we gonna be dis close

*me* same la, tak sangka seh esp when 1st time I saw u, u were using lip gloss

*him* and dat happened to be de last time

*me* its ok, I adore metro-sexual guy

*him* u adore i kan, straight 2 de point jela (smiled cheekily)

*me* oh really? confident banget kamu

*him* tanpa keyakinan mimpi tak akan bermakna

*me* good phrase

*him* I'm happy with u la even we havent attach yet

*me* me too, I feel at ease with u (smiled shy-ly)

*him* I think we need 2 discuss bout upgrading our hubungan to de nx level

*me* well, we shall try. u truly love me & can accept me for who I am?

*him* of course sayang. all dis while, u knw real well that I never look at ur kekurangan but I look for what u have in urself. u r almost perfect in my life

*me* (tahan malu & sebak) thanks Man, we'll see where our boat gonna sail after dis. I'm hopin for de best.

*him* yeah insyaAllah, me too. we need each other.

and it went on with many more serious parts which I'm so lazy to note down.
then we spent some gd moments at Pasir Ris, admiring de nature while enjoyin each other companion. I feel safe to be in his arms.

to u LH, 1-yr had passed during our early stage of frenship and many great moments has been shared during dis period. I'm hoping for more to come and please know this, despite having many male friends around me, u r special. u stood out from de others coz u'd won my heart. I'd experienced many bad patches and lots of heart-breaks, hope u wont be de same like those before u coz I beleve in u & like always, I have been sayin dis for so many times that u r special in ur own way that makes u totally different from de others.
U may not be de 1st to conquer my heart but may u be de last 1 to be there.
Ya Allah, jika benar dirinya untukku, dekatkan hati kami namun jika dia bukan untukku, aku redha dgn ketentuanmu. Ameen.

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" A dream is a wish your heart makes "

Raya-ing

finally, all of us managed to squeeze thru our busy schedule for dis raya outing.
US = me, my 4-besties that are Luthfie, Aida, Hassan @Wak Achan & Maliki @Mickey and not forgetting de 2 sensational yg tak sensasi 2-H whom both have 'Hakim' at de end of their name, Lukman & Henry, my current & former obsession, lol ;) maaf ye. and yeah, Hen's younger sista tagged along to. de more de merrier la people. it was a joyous moments with all of them.
hopefully next year we will able 2 organise much better for a better outing.

haha, plan ni memang ade kegilaan sikit. ape taknye jalan raye weekday, pukul 12noon at de 1st house. before that, let me explain why we were able to 'utilise' dis day that is thursday, 23rd oct.
me & Achan supposed to have class at 10am, only to be told that de class was cancelled when we were about to lve for school (nasib blom bla).
Luth & Aida were having their off-day (abg coast-guard & akak cisco).
Mickey still on his 'holiday-period' while counting days to his next working trip to Shanghai, de prev 1 was Dubai.
LH had an education's talk which took place frm 8am to 11am so he didnt need to come to school for teaching.
double-H works for his own firm. so he can arrange his schedule freely while his sista is havin semester break.
so ape lagi kan, grab de chance while u have it ;) lol.
even it was already more thn 3-weeks of Raya, all of us were still semangat in our traditional clothes and de guys were still in samping & songkok. aduhhh, sungguh menawan ya cewek2 & cowok2 sekalian, termasuk diriku. ok perasan, full stop.

we went to 8 houses altogether. though Hen&sis r siblings, we went to both his crib & their parents' as well.
1st house, LH's @Tampines St 45. I know he took a long time 2 get ready (seriously, dia memang peka with his appearance. metrosexual guy = my love) so we decided to attack his crib 1st la, better right so we wont waste any time ;) haha, dia tgh siap when we reached there. and we were served with his mum signature dish : Nasi Tomato, Ayam Merah & Dalcha.
next house, Achan's @Tampines St 43. served with Chicken Carbonara (did I spell it correctly?).
then to my crib @Tampines St 33. menu : roti kirai & curry lembu.
next, Hen's luxurious apartment @Simei Rd. and I was really surprised when de fried Macaroni tasted sooo spicy. Hen, since when do u have spicy tongue? afterall, great taste, I likeee.
5th stop was Henry&Sista; Hawani, parents' crib @New Upper Changi Rd. and we were served with gado-gado & mee bakso. till now, I cudnt find mee bakso as tasty as Hen's mum's cooking. just imagine that his mum is a british lady, but can cook Indonesian foods really well. haha, Hen's dad is an Indon, just like my dad.
when we reached Mickey's 2-storey home sweet home @Kembangan, his dad was already waitin 4 us at de gate. his dad is 1 sweet creature. de way he treats us is awesome and now I realised why Mickey didnt feel at lost after his mum pased away few yrs ago. his dad has been takin care of him & his younger sista so well with so much loves & attentions. dgn kita2 ni dia dah tunjukkan kasih sayang, ape lagi dgn anak sendiri kan. his dad prepared Mee Siam & fried Chicken for us.
all de way frm de East, we geared up to de North & West.
Aida's crib @Toa Payoh. de most kecoh house with de most family members. Aida has 5 siblings (excluding herself). on de table : baked rice with seafood & white-sauce topping.
finally, a place which i regard like my own, Luth's house @Jurong East. dah ku agak, hidangannya ialah : Soto Ayam complete with de yummy bagedil & de spicy lada. his mum best dish & my fav, takleh jumpa kat tempat lain, beb! ;)

started at 1st house @ 12.40noon & we left de last house at 11.40pm. 11-hrs of Raya-ing with de closest people in my life. nasib tak 12-hrs, kalau tak, da mcm org kerje pulak :)
thanks to all especially to de Mums : Mama, Ibu, Ummi, Mak & of course to Mickey's Abah who I adore lots, Abah Din, for preparing all de tasty-licious foods for us & so sorry if we didnt eat much at certain houses coz our stomach is sooo full & beggin us not to stuff in more ;)
sorry for messin up de place, jgn serik eh :)
thank u again. next year kita beraye lagi, masakla lagi ye ;) and for sure, next raye, Luth's house will nt be last stop ;)
and thanks to all who gave me duit raye, happy dok! from dis outing, I received $90 of duit-raye. come on people, I'm still schooling. betol tak Achan & Wani? lol ;)

I shall end here, I'll be back with more entries. stay tuned.
I'm sad that Raya has come to an end. I'm lookin forward for next yr :)
as for dis yr, Hari Raya Haji & Christmas are up next on Dec.
Dec = shopping month. yahooooooooo!!!

Grumpy Me

seriously, my mood swings badly whenever I'm tired or lackin of rest. due to de recently concluded pesta bola merdeka (I change it to Pesta Bola Raya), I made few trips to KL which really took toll on my body. though I enjoyed it, I realised my body cudnt bear all de pressure/exhaustion at a time, I'm not a robot ;)

back to SG on sunday after a thrilling final on Saturday night. reached here at about 3pm. tired. chatted a while with Mama thn took a short nap indeed before prof woke me up when he was about to lve for his dance workshop, LH sent & fetched him. thanks dear for de help.
I realised it was nearly 5pm so ape lagi, got myself ready for de match between Woodlands-HomeU. Mama was already gettin ready. mandi, siap ape2 yg patut jela, it was sunday so santai-day. I thought of giving de match a miss but upon thinking back that I already asked bro.smiley to get for me tixs, I tetap pergila. not nice to back-out at de last mins. Mama was against de back-out too ;)
cabbed all de way to woodlands and it costed me $17. if not bcoz of Mama who is still not recover fully from her leg swelling, Bro.Smiley would get a 'spelling' from me. beside Mama's condition, I took a cab bcoz of him, I needed to rush to meet him on-time but to my dissapointment, he was late for 20mins. dah biase sgt janji dgn abang aku sorang ni, kat stadium, interchange, MRT, void-deck, carpark, tak pernah betol janji dia.
seriously my mood was not that gd, futhermore I was attacked by diarohea out of sudden on that Sunday. I went to de toilet 3-times at CausewayPoint & 2-times at de stadium.

de match ended 2-1, woodlands' victory. referee was like shit and de woodlands' players were attention-seekers. pisang bonyoh betol! dissapointed with de defeat which gave a serious damage to their title hopes. but I'm stil hoping de title will be theirs, 4 more matches 2 go and anythg can happen in football, lets pray together HomeU followers.
in case IF they cant be de champion, I hope Super Reds will be. please, not SAF. I'm sick of them.

Mama suggested that we took cab home since my tummy was troubling me but kerana Pasar-Malam tu, I decided to take bus which left Mama surprised. memang pelik anak Mama ni. bought foods (ayam percik, lekor, cempedak, pisang goreng, candy floss) to bring home for us, not forgettin my lil prof and my sayang LH.
de bus journey was awesome, smooth & fast. tak sia2 naik bus.
LH & prof were already waiting 4 us at de void-deck, they were already waiting for half-hour (haha, sorry lupa kasi kunci).

dats all & sorry 4 de long entry. more posts to come ya.
all those belated ones, banyak giler ;)
take care all ...

Pesta Bola Merdeka

sorry if my post will be a sloppy 1, with many grammatical errors & with de mixture of Eng & Malay languages. I'm tired, disjointed & frustrated.
in my hotel room @ Sri Petaling Hotel, typing out de frustration I had during de final of Pesta Bola Merdeka (I changed it to Pesta Bola Raya coz it used 'merdeka' as de tourney supposed to take place somewhere arnd august bersempena dgn Msia nye kemerdekaan but It was postponed and now, diadakan pada musim raya).
Msia lost de final to Vietnam in de penalty shoot-out (sudden death) 5-6. full time score was 0-0

Msia reached de final after a very successful group stage matches and excellent semi-final match.
group stage : 4-0, 4-0, 6-0 (Nepal, Sierra Leone, Afghanistan) & SF : 4-0 over Myanmar.
ok people, especially de haters of Msia football team, u can say that they faced easy opponents during de group stage but at least, they played all out and got the convincing victories without conceeding. in de SF, they played Myanmar. no 1 gave them hope. Myanmar squad is de one that played in de 2004/5 & 2006 Tiger/AFF cup. I stil remember fondly how my own nation, Singapore, struggled to overcome Myanmar but Msia did it in a very much easier way. well, i dun deny that Msia looked shaky earlier during de match but once they'd gotten their rhytm & momentum, enough-said, goals were scored.

I was hoping for them to do well too in de Final. I know several players in de squad. I mingle with them better compared with my own country-men.
players sana walau dah kawin ke tunang ke ade GF ke, their partners are understanding. the WAGS pon boleh mingle with us freely & mcm dah lama kenal.
but in Spore, baru ade GF (pon tak ke mana la, kekentalan), dah kene kurung, kongkong. kekek ah players spore, takot dgn pompuan seh. takut kene tinggal ke takut tak dpt 'mesra bersama'?
kadang2 yg dah kawin tu lagi better la de wifey ;) haha, no comment la kan, I was once de WAGS of players jugak but takla pulak aku ni gila glamour ke gila nama, come on la people, partner korang tu public figure, jgn nak simpan dlm kain je. w/o fans, tak siapelah diorang tu.

so, lets get back to PBM, de main reason for Msia failure was, de strikers' failure to convert their chances into goal(s). I was wonderin where all de understandings that they built during de prev games & malang sekali, when that was what u needed de most, u didnt make use of it.
no blame to de defence nor de goalie. ok fine, de defender missed de spot-kick but was it fair just to blame him? Hafiz Zamani shudnt be blamed.
no goals were conceeded untill dat spot-kick moment. need I to say more? de defence (Hafiz Zamani, Daud, Irwan, Aidil and de others DF) marshalled their backline damn well and Helmi Eliza too, guarded his area well. Eliza not to be blamed too for not saving de penalties, it was nt an easy task, people. spare ur thought.
Eliza had done extremely well thruout de tourney, not forgetting that sweet-boy Adney who played in de last group match. though he was lacking of confidence but he did well in order not to conceed.
so frontmen, u didnt do ur job well in de final. no goals conceeded made it easier to score even only 1 but de goal never arrived.

well, no point dwelling. its over. lets look forward for de nx tourney in Myanmar (kan?) in Nov before de AFF-Suzuki cup in Dec. take de failure as de key to more success in future. I believe u guys can do it. dah nampak byk sgt improvement and I dare 2 say, Singapore is lucky not to be placed in de same group as Msia in de AFF cup.
so Msian tigers, i wanna see de same spirits like de ones in PBM. dun dwell over de defeat but bounce from it. keep up de gd performance and transform it into victory(ies) in de upcoming tournaments.
de tigers are well-loved & supported by me just like my lions.

till here thn, will be back soon.

PSC-Night

haha, I just realised I'm yet to blog about de President Star Charity (PSC) night held at Mediacorp. ok I know, dah belated nak mampos cum dah basi. whats de date eh? I forgot & I'm so lazy to take de invitation card. 11 or 12 Oct if I'm not wrong.
LH was an invited guest so he brought me along and I was so delighted ;) hehe, bukan jakun la ok, I'm used to all dis kind of shows but coming as an invited guest was a new experince sia :) excited la sikit kan.
honestly, beside donating, my niat to go was to see Abg Addyyy & Abg Apiittt performance LIVE. has been pretty long since I last meet them.
sesunnguhnye their performance were damn great & fantastic. Apit with de tap dance while Ady with de zaman 50-an. some glitch during Ady performance, no thanks to his singing partner; a veteran which I dont need to name coz tak kuasa langsung!
managed to meet them, just for a while though after de show & we took pictures (pictures still with LH coz I keep forgettin to take) and 1st thing came out from Apit's mouth was, jgn lupa dtg rumah Cik Nor (dats ur mum ryte Apit, rumah dia rumah kau jugak kan, lol) Ady was de usual him, smiled and smiled.
OMG, I was over de moon seh. de sweet-ever Ady & burning-charmer Apit.
my choice = Ady, definitely ;)

sape agaknye korang fikir dua mamat Ady & Apit ni kan, haha, they are our very own idols. go figure out urself ya, takkan tak tau kan :)
another co-incidence, seakan-akan persamaan :
Mama is a gd fren of Cik Nor (Apit's Mum) while LH's mum is a gd fren of Ady's Mum and LH is a gd buddy of Ady as well.
and I need to agree with my bright lil prof that LH looks like Ady.

dats all for now, I'll be back soon.

Footies

friday night football at JBS, between de yg.lions and de HomeU.
final score : 1-0 to HomeU. I dont think de yg.lions deserved to lose with their never say die attitude but 1 silly mistake can cause everythg. and I feel that HomeU was lucky to win. a sincere thought from me.

bro.smiley played for almost an hour, not a bad performance frm him but I believe he needs more time on de pitch to show what he is capable of. but I still managed to catch few good touches by him & a shot that skied-up. its ok bro, great effort u put in.
what do u expect from him, people? stop all those booings & critics. he was benched for almost all de matches, then followed by an ankle injury which brought him on de operation table for de 1st time & now he IS STILL in recovery process. recovering is never simple as what u thought, heart-less people. u never know how they feel & suffer during this period & how their psychology is affected. I'm not trying to act clever here but seriously, I understand their situation because I'm studying sports' psychology and I dare u to read all my notes & books to really feel how they feel.
come on people, dont just shout out like a bunch of crazy people, doesnt it show that u guys are immoral? be in their boots and u'll regret every single words that came out frm ur mouth.
to you my bro, dun u ever feel dishearten by all those unnecessary people but believe in me & ur other believers, that u r still de best in our eyes. we know u can excel.

honestly, I seldom watch de yg.lions' matches. but tadi, I was truly amazed by their goalie; Hyrulnizam Jumaat. OMG, few of de many saves that he made were de most difficult ones & I should say it, top-class! seriously, if he keeps his gd performance & keep on bein consistent, I'm sure he'll be in de squad for the AFF-Suzuki cup comes this december.
all de best Hyrul. I seldom admire goalie that much and not many got my attention durin a match but dis lad is totally different la :)

move on to Pesta Bola Merdeka (PBM), Msia won again in their 2nd group match, against Sierra Leone, 4-0. goals scored by Indra Putra, Safee and I'm not sure who were de scorers of de other 2-goals coz I got different infos where my cousin said Indra scored his 2nd and another 1 was an own goal while 1 of de Msia players SMSed me stating that de other 2 scorers were de pair of 'twin-terror' Zaquan Adha & Aidil Zafuan.
well, nvm la, no big deal as long as they won. that what matter most to me ;)
next game on Monday, against Afghanistan at de Bukit Jalil Stdm. may victory be with them again and I'm sure they'll qualify for de semi-final. gd luck, dudettes!

so to all my besties & de 2-H, lets plan up for monday and pls take note that it gonna be at BUKIT JALIL, nt at MBPJ. accomodation needs to be adjusted.

dats all for now, I'll be back soon.
I need more rest, serious la. I'm damn tired.
I skipped my evening class tadi ;)
stay tuned for more updates.

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" Experience is the child of Thought, and Thought is the child of Action. We cannot learn men from books "

thanks for de tixs, bro.

did u see de glow on his face upon seein u?

Short Trip

15/10-16/10
short, very short indeed.
it was only 2D/1N stay at de Hilton Hotel in Petalin Jaya. just bcoz to watch de pesta bola merdeka at de MBPJ stdm. all thanks to double-H for his neat arrangements on everythg. we had a blast though for less thn 24-hrs.

double-H, me, bestie Aida & Luthfie, my 2 male cousins who are frm KL & dat MAT MESIA had a tiring but enjoyable journey by van up to PJ. we reached there at bout 5+ or 6, checked in de hotel, lepak!
no doubt, de hotel is fantastic! but de room that we booked nt really gerek as de 1 in Ipoh dat time. dis time round, we took 2-rooms (demi keselamatan beb!) which were next to each other and we could 'connect' de 2-rooms together.
after Maghrib, we had our dinner and headed to de stadium for de Match btween Msia & Nepal. it was a wet day :)
after de match, de guys bumped into few people (their frens, de players) while me & Aida were already having back=pain due to ...? i dunno why. my cousin noticed our unhappy faces and he signalled de others, so we headed back to hotel.
cleaned up myself, terus lepak balik though I didnt sleep yet. Aida was feelin hungry non-stop there. kalah org mengidam ;) we were annoyed by de guys who were very noisy, I was nt really sure what they were doin but Aida said they were playing games, surfin net, watching tv.
I didnt realised at what time I fell asleep but it must be after 3am. I'd set my alarm at 8am since we were leavin at 10am. my eyes were too heavy to open but I dragged myself to de toilet. after Aida got herself ready, we had our breakfast w/o informing de guys.
while eating, they popped out at de cafe ;) haha, jgn la marah cik abang-abang sekelian, haha, kecoh giler after that with all their nonsense, dah serupa mcm org jakun!
packed everythg, and we left at about 10.30am.

summary:
[FT score, Msia 4-Nepal 0. scored by Safee Sali (2), Indra Putra & Khyril Muhymeen.
a match where de Msians dominated for almost de entire match. truly, they played damn well and showed de hunger to win de match.
Safee's scissors' kick was totally AWESOME. and Muhymeen scored immediately after came on as a subs in de 2nd half.]
[rugi giler pasal bayar full rate but we checked in at 5+ where de actual check-in time is 2pm and we checked out at 10+ where de actual time is 12noon. well, ape nak buat, dah dikatakan tonggang langgang trip!]
[I didnt manage to do any shoppin or buy anythg except for foods, lol ;) ]
[overall, I had fun. thanks again Hen, I appreciate all de efforts. lets go again for de monday's match. to my other lovely peeps, deal for another trip?]

well, I shall end here. I will be back soon :)
I'm really tired and in need of rest.
my lecture schedule is pretty tight dis week :)
and of course, I'm headin to JBS for de match btween Yg.Lions & HomeU on fri night.

Adakah ...

adakah aku yg terawal atau kau yg terlewat?
benar ungkapanmu yg kita tidak ditakdirkan bersama. byk halangan yg telah membantutkan impian kita. dan kini, kau ada dia, aku ada dia.
senario yg sama? tapi tak serupa.
I just want u to know that de memories I had with u since 2004 are too sweet to be thrown away. I promise u that I'll keep all those alive in my mind.
a things for sure that touched my heart is, when u confessed belated-ly bout de feelings. yeah, we were too afraid with what we felt. at de end, we got no 1 to blame except for ourselves.
we are miles apart but de thoughts we have for each other make us feel near.
of course I wont forget u, of course I wont stop keepin in touch with u, of course I will look for u when I'm at ur place & of course I'll attend to u when u r at mine.
another thing is, u r a fren who accept me for who I am despite my 'negative' attitudes and vice-versa. I'm not affected by de harsh comments people gave to u.

how I wish we could turn back de time. well, dat will be a dream, forever. but like u said, we can only plan but Allah will decide :) dont rule out anythg just yet.

and yeah, dont worry people, this is nt between me & LH. we are still blisfully & happily together. but this is for someone across de causeway who once always made my heart beat faster and till now, still.
he is my yesterday, LH is my today and I hope LH will be my tomorrow & forever.

till here thn, I'll be back soon :)

Another Round

... of exhaustion :) last weekend pancit and dis weekend, saturday to be specified, I was drenched again. and now, still recovering from de exhaustion but I'm going out again in few hrs time for Raya visitings with my family.

went to few relatives' houses (dad's side), tu pon yg I know well je, yg lain2 tu kirim salam jela. if my aunt&uncle's family from KL ni never come here, I would never go to visit my dad's side coz they are the ones who I'm damn close with dan yg sewaktu dengannye.
last home, my aunt's place (maternal) since she was organising an open-house ;) foods, foods and foods but I didnt eat much at her place coz I went to 4-houses before that which all 4 served us with yummylicious foods (satay, mee siam, soto ayam, chicken wings, nasi briyani, etc). so I was already full by de time I reached her place.

so today, I'll be goin to continue my visitings with my Mama, prof & guests from KL. I refused to go at 1st but after much persuasion from Mama & auntie and upon thinking back that they are only here once in a while, why not accompany them :)
sewa van ;) and my uncle will drive it. well, no public transport means lesser legs' pains ;)

dats all for now, will be back soon.
will be attendin de president star charity night as an invited guest along with LH tonight.
and I'm yet to jalan raye with my besties, LH & Double-H. plan already made for de outings with them and I have an additional plan with LH for visitngs to LH's teaching mates' houses. all those plans will take place in de coming week.
ok peeps, an open-house at my place is most likely will take place either dis weekend or de followin 1. I'll confirm it again soon :)

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" festive season is de time to share our loves "

Most-Welcomed

yeah, like finally, they had arrived.
they are my paternal cousins along with their parents & that 'MAT MESIA' (u guys who know me well will know who I'm referring to, he is Malaysian ;p)
my cousins : a girl who are at de same age as me & his 2-elder bros (25 & 28) who are Msian footballers ;) hint : carilah sape yg footballers adik-beradik with de age I stated above ;)
MAT MESIA looked damn damn damn good with de much neater hair-cut, with de classic 'jambul armani', fullamakk!!!

they will be here for few days, they are not sure yet how long they will be here but I guess not really much probs if they are to stay longer coz my ge-gerl cuzie is having her semester-break, bo-boy cuzins are 'off-season', light training has started but they already asked to be excused while my aunt&uncle run their own bussiness. de MAT MESIA, well, what do u guys think? he is in 'free mode now'. lol ;)
they arrived in de afternoon and they will be stayin at my place ;) wah wah, meriah gitu kan for dis few days.

I went to JBS in de evenin but Mama & prof didnt tag along. ade tamu kan so I went on with my plan. my cousins too didnt go coz they were still tired after de journey so I called bestie Luthfie and he agreed to follow me and only after that, de MAT MESIA told me he wanted to follow.
so de 3 of us went to JBS & while on de way there, Mickey called to join us. so we reached JBS a lil late, game had already started then
my dolphins lost 0-2 to de rams, what a sad result but seriously de dolphins were not at their best and their no.15 is a pain in de neck, takleh angkat seh!!
we went for supper after de match & mr.dolphin followed us. haha ;) Luth, kau jgn macam2 eh. de guys were enjoyin themselves ya and at times I felt like my existence didnt matter to them, haha but nvm la, tak kecik hati pon kengkawanku ..

LH knows I went out with MAT MESIA though with de presence of my besties. I need to agree with Mama that orang yang intellect tak senang marah, just like LH. hati dia luhur and he doesnt know to be a hypocrite. if he said he is fine, thats mean he is fine, REALLY.
Luth, Mickey & Mr.Dolphins got off be4 us coz we were goin to different directions.
we had a big prob getting de cab till finally we decided to take bus. but better due to de longer time taken ;) OMG, I think I'm not wrong to say that I'm not ready to commit coz when I was with him tadi, I felt like I stil have special feelings towards him and my heart is not for LH fully just yet.
thats why I'm usin de status of single but taken rather than attached or in a relationship.
I'm bein sincere here, I'm not trying to hurt anyone where I'm fully aware that LH is aware too with what is happening and what is playin in my mind even before LH get closer to me like now so I'm sure there'll be no misunderstandings and insya Allah, with Allah's guidance, I'll be able to pick up de right choice along de right path, ameen.
I just wonder why de confession from de MAT MESIA only happened now and not months ago where I'm sure things would be easier. that precious confession I have been waitin for 4-yrs but was told not at de very right time. I appreciate it still. I'm not counting anyone out nor goin to pick my choice, its not goin to be so soon. lots need to be taken into consideration.
I adore both (just like how I adore Hady & Taufik), lol, merepek ;) I'm hopin 4 de best.

dats all 4 now, wait for my next post, soon!
I'm looking forward to de good times ahead with my family/relatives & of course de day I gonna see both Abg Hadyyy & Abg Apitttt ;)
weeeeeeeeeeeeee..!!!

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" Conscience is the perfect interpreter of life "

All-in-1

just a random update from me, after so many days of busy days, lol. seriously I'm too tired to update dis few days due to school which means assingments :( and de non-stop flow of people comin 2 my place.

school is interesting. classmates/course mates are gr8 bunch of people. lots of assingments to be done but I'm doin 1 at a time, alhamdulillah, my time management is gettin better nowadays and I already started to have de feeling of bein a full-time teacher :)
haha, 1 of my classmates said that I feel that coz my partner is a teacher, haha, no la, seriously I'm seeing de much better me now.

I havent do any visitings except for 1 only dis weekdays, to my neighbour's house.
but people keep flowing into my house, haha, I'm welcomin them open-heartedly. I love having guests so readers/frens/relatives, u r welcome to my humble house but please call 1st ya ;) or I'm not goin to shoulder de blame if I'm nt at home when u come w/o informing :)
my Raya visitings will kick-off again dis weekend though nt much house la coz I'm not feelin really well plus with Mama's leg's prob and Prof's exams is very much around de corner.

friday night I'll nt be at home coz I'm heading to JBS for de match between my lovely dolphins & woodlands' rams.
speaking bout de dolphins, Mirko had left Singapore. OMG, another 1 of my triple-M is gone & now left with de newly-crowned dad only. I'm sad & feelin down. my tears dropped de moment he stepped into de departure hall at de airport.
I'm not goin to elaborate much but enough for me to say, I feel a huge lost :( I'm stil yet to cope with Muki's departure 6-mths ago and now, I need to face another 1.
he has been like a big bro to me where I enjoyed every moments he was around me with his never-endin jokes & Mr.Bean foolish-ness. his advices are always near to me and he was de 1 along with Muki who ensured me everythg will be fine after that 'broken-dream moment' a yr ago. he always reminded me there are better things ahead of me for me to achieve & what I'd lost is worth nothing more thn rubbish.
knowin him, his wife & daughters were 1 great moment. I had many memories with them to be remembered. we are like family. Prof always looked forward to de time when Mirko's daughters would be in Spore (usually they were here from end June till Sept), it would be de time for him to play with his '2-sisters'. Mama is pretty close with his wife & we did invite them several times 2 our place for dinner/lunch.
as what he promised me, his mates, etc, he will come back 1-day. I'll hold his words.
Bro, may u have great times there in Croatia with ur family after almost a year of nt seein them. may de best be with u always & forget us not ya ;) memories live forever. I gonna miss u damn much. he is my inspiration of jokes ;) lol.

I wanna end here, I broke down again.
I'll update soon k :) stay tuned.

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" Reality is a question of perspective; the further you get from the past, the more concrete and plausible it seem but as you approach the present, it inevitably seems incredible "

Junior

1st of all, let me send my biggest congrats to Mustafic or Farra as he is affectionately known, and his wife; Sabirah, for de arrival of their baby girl; de lil Ajna.
oh my, Ajna is 1 cute baby girl. she cried for de 1st time at about 1-plus in de afternoon today :)
may she grow into a healthy girl. I bet that she will be as gorgeous as her mum & will be as active as her daddy.
finally, after more thn a year of marriage, they have a junior now. more to come, right Farra? ;)

on de other note, I noticed that our players in de national team who are married, most of them have a daughter as their 1st child.
those who are in de list (inform me if I miss any name(s)) :
- Lionel Lewis, a new-crowned dad too to his cute lil Jennel
- Dan Benno
- John Wilko
- Indra Sahdan
- Alam Shah
- Alex Duric
- Mustafic Fahrudin, yeah de most recently crowned dad to de cutie pie Ajna.

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" The birth of all things is weak and tender, therefore we should have our eyes intent on beginnings "

EXHAUSTION

OMG, I'm damn tired after 2-days of Raya visitings. Saturday I was out from 12noon till 12midnite, I was totally pancit by de time I reached home, leg was aching and head was spinning to de max speed. Mama whose leg just recovered has started to swell again. and not forgettin Prof's behaviour thruout de journey.

I woke up at noon on Sunday as I was so tired, then we headed to LH's house since we didnt make it on saturday due to time's lacking. I was real hungry at that moment and bagai pucuk dicita ulam mendatang, his mum served us with Nasi Tomato, Ayam Merah, Udang Sweet-Sour & Pacri. I ate dgn berselera sekali, sungguh enak ;) ayam merah my fav, ape lagi kan, rembat ah! haha, no worries, I was still keeping my sopan-santun infront of my potential in-law, lol.

spent bout 1-and-half hours there then we headed back home. I dare to say LH's parents are truly nice people and I feel totally part of de family and de way his 2-pairs of sisters&bro-in-laws, nephews&nieces treat me & family are really awesome, thumbs-up. I didnt expect to receive dis kind of positive treatment frm them but Alhamdulillah, all thanks to de Almighty, everythg is sailing smoothly. and thanks to Mama too for de prayers all dis while :)

soon after reachin home, I fell asleep at 4pm and woke up 3-hrs later, haha .. ngantok banget! clenin up myself, pray then I went out with cutie-cousin fifi to tampines central to pay all de monthly bills & to buy new mouse for my laptop, PC games & to survey for Prof NIKE shoes that he want. alahai .. suddenly he popped out that he want that green NIKE shoes which I asked him to buy be4 Raya. he refused at that time & insisted to buy his current shoes but now, he want it. ini anak banyak cerdik hah ;) but I feel that Green will nt be suitable for all clothes so I will buy for him de black one.

meetin childhood sweetheart was great, haha. well, we are related la, kirakan quite close and his mum used to jodoh2 kan me with him so many of our relatives teased us. he is in de same age as me, bestie Luthfie knows him too. when we were in our early teen-hood (13-17 yrs old gitu), we stopped talkin to each other, dah besar kan so malu2 meow-meow la gitu but after that, when dah matured extra sikit kan, we started to talk again till now but not as much as we used to during de childhood days. so I went to his place on Sat ;) we did lil talkings and both of us are taken ;) but great la, his big bro & mum stil tease us. afterall, my mum is close with his. he was a shorty but no longer is, hehe, he is taller thn me now.
Alhamdulillah, ukhwah kekeluargaan masih utuh bersemi. moga ia terus berkekalan walau dua jiwa ini tidak terpateri. insya-Allah, Ameen.

oh well, me & besties includin that 2-H are plannin for our Raya outin. date yet to decide but a.s.a.p it gonna be. hehe, we will go for public transport dis yr. Ya, bus & train! lagi meriah tau, save cost pulak tu! 7 people mean 7 houses and I'm sure it gonna be more thn 7 hours ;)

visitin 2 relatives' house is not complete yet despite de 12-hrs 'session' on saturday so when to continue, I dont know. Mama is nt really well so let her recover fully 1st :)

I guess its better for me to end here, has been a long post.
am goin to enter de dreamland soon ;)
new week ahead; schooling, football, Raya-ing, etc ..
will be back soon, take care all.

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" If you carry your childhood with you, you never become older "

Appreciation

I'm not really a sentimental/jiwang2 type of person ;) but since knowin LH, I feel very much different and while listening to hundreds of songs fron my laptop, I was attracted with dis song sang by Indonesian singer, Afghan, who is very young but very much talented.

TERIMA KASIH CINTA

Tersadar, didalam sepi ku,

setelah jauh melangkah

Cahaya kasih mu, menuntun ku

kembali dalam, dakap tangan mu

Terima kasih cinta,untuk segalanya,

kau berikan lagi,kesempatan itu.

Tak akan terulang lagi,semua…

kesalahan ku,yang pernah menyakiti mu.

Tanpa mu, tiada berarti,

tak mampu lagi berdiri

not full version but thhis part is what i like most ...
till here 1st, will be back again soon ;)

Impressed-100th

well done HomeU, great job Bro.Smiley.
HomeU beat Geylang 3-1. and it was a very much needed win for them after loosing to fellow title contender just few days ago.
goals were frm Ludo & Indra (2) while Geylang's was from Fazrul.
as I predicted, Bro.Smiley started and played for almost entire game (read almost) and he did well. energetic performance and some good display of his skills too. he had a shot terlajak too.

prof was naggin at me like an old-man for not bringing him to de match and dats mean he missed to see his beloved kor-kor in action. everythg for his kor-kor, he wont tolerate or think twice, even with me; his sista ;) but its ok, I dont mind sharin if that makes him happy. to see him happy is what matter most to me.

dats all, just a short entry.
but it is my 100th post, what an achievements. so lets count down to de 200th ;) lol
wait more my next post, soon.

Pause

Hari Raya visitings are paused for these 2-days; thurs & fri bcoz Lil Prof is schoolin .. hehe, he already warned me not to go anywhere. I have class too today, in de school now anyway ;).
but, people keep pourin to my place and I'm sure today/tonight will be no different.
katakan raya kan, so layanlah tetamu dgn seikhlas hati ;)

I'm goin to visit LH's house on Saturday, a must! coz he & his parents already visited me last night; 2nd day of Raya. malu gitu ..
beside that, I'm goin to my relatives' houses dis sat too. busy class pertama ;) and get ready for Prof's behaviour thruout de long journey here n there.

I forgot to mention in my earlier posts that purple was de colour for me & prof on de 1st day of Raya while Mama was in Grey. Mama claimed that grey belongs to purple too. ape2 jela, tak cerewet Ma.

and also on bermaaf-maafan, that was de most touching moment durin Raya. no la, i didnt cry that bad. sebak la tapi so I cried when seekin frm forgiveness from certain people like Mama (of course la), my closest cousins & 2-aunts. and I was in tears too when prof asked for forgiveness from me coz he was in tears too ;) oh my, adik aku dah besar! he has started to understand about dis.
seekin forgiveness from LH was another weird moment. seriously, I never kiss de hands of any men/guys (among my frens who are older thn me I mean) except for Mr.Dolphin who is my ex-boyfie whom I respect very de much ;) and that Perak dude. so when I kiss LH's hand, it was like, duhhh, serba tak kene. no 1 was around la dat time, we were in de car at de carpark so makin la kekok ;) but I feel tenang during 'that moment', mcm sejuk hati gitu ;) is he de man? haha, well, skip that for this moment k.

dis evening, homeU-vs-geylangU at JBS. I'm goin to give it a miss despite prof's non-stop pujuk-rayu to go. I turned him down, I'm so tired to go. so I will watch it from home ;) relax sambil makan kuih raya, lol.
so bro.smiley, I think u r goin to play, do ur best ya ;) all de best to homeU.

Prof's end-of-yr exams is arnd de corner and he is still relax & refused to make any extra efforts. his written english is still poor ;(
next week will be his listening compre for both eng & malay while all de core papers will start on de 22nd. I'm giving all de best I can to improve his studies.
oh God, pls give me extra patience in dealin with dis boy.

I shall end here, I'll be back soon :)
I have many pics to upload but feelin very lazy to do so. well, I'll just upload de Raya pics along with few belated pics durin de fasting mth.
and no pics of me with LH. I'm nt ready to show him online coz I'm nt sure just yet if he'll be de 1, de most true & suitable 1 ;)
and yay, cousins, aunt&uncle frm KL are comin here, so does that Perak dude. I'm so excited ;)

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" Nine-tenths of education is encouragement "

1st Day

my 1st day rara was spent well, ok-ok la. I enjoyed it where I get to meet all my maternal cousins, aunts & uncles. well, thats where I belong. not that I dont wanna visit my paternal side but de 1 family that I'm close with is not Raya-ing in Spore, they are in Msia till de weekend and another 1 family is livin in Msia as well so I need to wait a lil later to visit them or most probably they'l come over to my place 1st.

yeah, I still get my duit raya frm my aunt & uncles though nt all, well, masih puas hati la ;) and I'm stil waiting duit raya from those brothers of mine, jgn buat2 lupa hah ;) LH gave me already, hehe, seronok sungguh!

well, despite all de smile on my face, I'm still hopin. I think there is no need for me to elaborate as those who read my blog on frequent basis will know what I;m referring to.
but a thing 4 sure, thanks to all my besties, LH, Double-H, Kak Farah & Arif for all de concerns & encouragements.
u guys made me realised that I'm nt thankful with what I have but still lookin 4 sthg that is nt around. I'll apreciate those who are around me more from now on, includin all of u.

dats all 4 now, will be back soon.
take care all.

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" there is no place like home "

Double Celebrations

1st Oct 2008
1-date, 2-celebrations.
let me wish all Muslims Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri. pls forgive all my wrong deeds as I seek for it sincerely from de bottom of my heart.
to all de Children out there including those who feel like a child, Happy Children's Day. enjoy ur special day, kiddos. esp to my students, cousins anf of course my 1 n only lil prof.

dalam kita bergembira, jgn lupa pada yg tiada & yg kurang bernasib baik,
bersyukurlah kita atas nikmat yg diberi kerana sedarlah bahawa ada insan-insan yg lebih malang nasibnya dari kita. sedekahkan sebaris dua doa' pd yg telah tiada & hulurkanlah sedikit bantuan pada yg kurang upaya.

speacially to u Arif, thanks for everythg we shared after hearing de takbir on de eve of Raya. I was in tears and he was down as well. as he claimed, we shared de same fate but with diff conclusions.
throughout our frenship, I never realised that despite his 'relax-1-corner' attitude, there is a caring bro inside him. I've known him for more thn 2-yrs and we seldom talk except on several occasions but recently, I realised he do care.
thanks again, bro. duit raye jgn lupa hah!

and lastly, happy born day to bro.Zulkarnaen Zainal. may u stay in de best of health & iman always k. more success for u & stags in future, ya? :)