lil prof

just have de feeling to blog bout this cute lil boy in my life ..

a boy who nvr fail to brighten my days & to cheer me up ..

he is turning 7 later this yr, I'm pretty sad that he is growing up soooo fast. despite bein proud as well to see him is a big boy now, I'm sad as I realised as he is growing up that 1 day he will not be attached to me as how he is now. even I'm sure that he'll look up 4 me, bein close with me, but it'll never b de same. I'm hoping that my worst fear will nt come true. I love him soo much.

since entering Pri.1, he is having a very hard time to cope with his studies. he is lacking de motivation & interest. that is worrying me a lot bcoz he did well during his kindergarten days. so what I'm seeing now is not what he used to be. honestly, he doesnt bother much about his studies despite me advising him everyday, reminding him de importance of education. to make matter worst was, he failed his math test !! he never had any probs in Maths before. and, his reading skills is getting poorer. *sigh* I'm really concern bout this.

what he knows is, playing! even I limit his playing times, still, he would APPRECIATE & MAKE FULL USE of de time (even how short it is) to de max. be it PSP (thats mine anyway), PS2, computer games, game boy, kicking de ball (in de house, that pissed me off) & at de playground. OMG, boys will always be boys.

but, on de brighter notes, I'm happy that he is doing well with his 'muqaddam' lessons. though he is still in early stage, I'm glad he is coping well. and also, in his modern dance. he just started in it but is enjoying it so much. Mr.LH (his teacher cum dance instructor), told me that this lil prof of mine has great passion in dancing. yup I can see that coz he is like worms now, cannot stay/sit still. at least, I have sthg 2 cheer for. I developed new talent in him and that is dancing. he can kick de ball and dance well too ..

for many schools, mid-year examination has already started. same goes to at lil prof's school. but LUCKY that there is no examination for those pupils in Pri.1. so there is no exams for lil prof for this mid-term. if there is, I dont know how he'll fare :-)

thinking of buying a new pair of boots for him but stil couldnt decide on which 1. surveyed for so many times but de probs were, no right size for him when pattern/colour is already fine or vice versa. he is pretty fussy too in choosing boots for himself unlike before where he agreed to everythg I said n chose 4 him. well, I need 2 understand & accept that he is growing up and has his own taste now. so de hunt for de most suitable boots goes on, hehe .. I found 1 nice boots at Vivo, it is frm Adidas but seems like he prefers Nike more nwadays. I bought him 3 pairs of boots before, de 1st was frm Lotto followed by Diadora & de current 1 he is using is from Nike.

we have an opposite favourtite brands where I'm so much in love w my Adidas (I have lots of stuffs ok, Liverpool Jersey & Bag, watches, water bottles, shoes, sweater, shirts, track pants, bags, slippers & sandals) while his stuffs were mostly frm Nike (shoes, shirts, shorts, water bottle, boots).

Haha, I spent lots on him coz who else I should spend my money on if it is not on him? dont worry, Mama has her share too. I gave her a gd sums of money monthly ;p

maybe till here 1st for my post on him, I'll b back soon with more posts and also de 2nd part of post on this lil boy.

blessed to have u

Double-H is in town so I'm pretty busy with him :-) it is a must to keep busy with him when he is around as we are apart much frequent thn we are together. so he'll b here till monday morning be4 flying back to Jakarta. I reserved my Saturday specially for him although my actual plan was to watch football@Bishan. at de end I never go, only my mum & lil prof went 4 de game.

Double-H & me went to VivoCity, reached there arnd 3+, had our meal at 1 of the restaurant. I was a bit reluctant actually to eat there since I was damn hungry (havent eat anythg since morning) so I wanted for a rice/noodle meal, not any western food. but de place was too crowded so we settled for de less-crowded place.
de movie; SUPERHERO, started at 5.15 so soon after we finished our meal, we walked to de cinema. I love GV VivO & GvMax so much la .. more comfortable :-) seriously my stomach couldnt take in anythg more but he still insisted of buying popcorns so up 2 him la .. haha, during de movie, he looked a lil sleepy but tried 2 deny it. well darling, I could c that. de movie was great, worth watching.
after de movie, he suggested that we survey for laptop, he is buying a new 1. I was some sort like pissed off coz he promised me that after de movie, we would jalan-jalan arnd Esplanade/Merlion there. but as always, we compromised. we didnt survey nor go to de esplanade. we settled for shopping instead, BUT no entry to any shops selling laptop. haha .. can b childish at times both of us.
I bought my skin care products frm Silkpro, that is for my monthly supply thn went on to buy few things (wallet, sports shoes, chocs & t-shirts for lil prof) while he bought shirts too, socks & I dont knw what la, after-shave gel I guess :p
n lastly, before we went home, we had ice-cream session there .. it was real funny with his non-stop nonsense & jokes .. its a pleasure to have him around. whenever I'm with him, I feel so happy. despite all de rough patches, I still treasure him sooo much & my love for him is REAL. de difficulties we faced make de loves grow stronger. I feel blessed.

well, thats all for now, n yeah, he has a blog too. great, sthg NEW but I will c how long he can commit himself with blogging. dont b angry Dear, it happened before. 1 thing I like bout his is, he added a quote at de end of de post. I like! so inspirational ..

n be4 I forget, HomeU suffered their 1st defeat .. try again next time. tough luck!

SYF 2008 - result

my sweet prince
group photo 1-w instructor & students' helper
group photo 2
awww! my 'baby boncet' w his guitar & notes

a short post this time .. haha I know, when I said short de last time, it was de whole page long. LOL ..

bronze award for both Hilmie in Instrument Essemble-Guitar & Mr.LH in International-modern dance. for some, it was not the best of result, but I'm satisfied enough with both results. entering de SYF for de very 1st time, competing w those who already have de experience, it was not that simple. so well done to both person I mentioned above and to de whole group as well.

de principal was so pleased too, and his words did knock some sense for those who know nothing beside criticising. I wonder how much time they have, I hope I have as much time as theirs. :-)

to Mr.LH, there is a chance for u 2 shine next year, and maybe, try 2 get de silver award? or Gold? nothing is impossible.

to Hilmie, promise me 2 do well in ur PSLE ok? its for ur own good, dear. set the target to earn urself a place in Dunman or St.Hilda so u can continue with ur guitar. so its all up 2 u :-) u give me aggregate 220 or above, that Adidas boot will be urs, I'll let u choose whichever u want.

as promised, I attached few pics of Hilmie & gang taken after de SYF performance. sorry as there is no pics of Mr.LH ..

great day

22nd Apr :
I had a wonderful day on tuesday. went out for de whole day. I'm feelin so fresh after de-stressing yesterday. I was stuck at de hopsital for few days visiting 2 people there so at last, after they were discharged, I'm back free, again.
futhermore I'm done with school (for this semester aje) but still need to do few research. well, ok la, I have more free times.

after sending lil prof 2 school, I left to Republic Poly with Mama & Bestie Luthfie, to give our support to our sweet ever Hilmie. he was performing in SYF 2008 in Instrument Essemble (Guitar) for his school. de pictures of Hilmie & result I'll state later in my next post along with de International Dance's result. He was sitting in de front row, in de middle, right infront of the school's conductor, Mr.Terrence Matthew Choo. Mr Choo is a really gd instructor who has a lot of experience in this area. thanks 2 his patience, dedications & supports. Hilmie & gang performed well since this is de 1st time de school is taking part in Guitar, so I'd already expected it wont be as smooth as those who already have de experience. in Guitar, its not only about strumming it, memorising de notes but also de face expressions. de latter part is where the kiddos stumbled. they looked very cramped & stressed. but its ok, they tried & gave the best that they could & of all, the courage they have that is to come fwd & show people the talent they have. well done!
after de performance, we caught up with Hilmie for a while be4 he went back to school with de school bus. he was delighted 2 c us in de hall, supporting him. he was even more pleased 2 c Luthfie was there too. and Luthfie gave him a big hug.

from RP, we went to Causeway Point for our late lunch (at 3.30pm) at pizza hut. browsed de mall & bought few things. Mama was like 'eh cant u even for once browse de mall w/o buying anythg?' .. sorry mum, honestly I couldnt.
then we sent Mama back home as we were using double-H's car. yah lor, double-H is not in town so y let de car left 'unattended' .. hehe, yeah double-H doesnt mind we use his car. so then Luthfie(Luth) decided 2 watch a movie. movie again? both of us just watched a movie (Definitely, Maybe) on monday night but then I agreed 2 his idea since i got nothing else better 2 do. so y not accept de free treat right. so we ended up watching The Other Boleyn Girl after having hard times deciding which movie 2 watch since there are so many great movies 2 b watched.

next destination was de Hougang stdm :-). we didnt plan 2 watch this match but once again, we were feeling so free so we went there to watch Sengkang-VS-Gombak. I have friends playin for Sengkang so y not give them some support ;p. final score was 1-1. sengkang's poor result/performance goes on ...

final destination was at simpang bedok. planned 2 eat our supper there but changed plan since Luth had a terrible stomachache. we bought our foods as well as for my & his family thn he sent me back home. I reached home at 11+. not wasting any time, I cleaned up myself, had my food & chatted a while w Mama & Lil Prof, thn I went to sleep w/o checking my handphone or even toching my laptop. TIRED.

was away from home from 12.30pm till around 11.30pm. nearly 12-hours but I enjoyed myself & of course, gone all de probs which I shudnt bother about & I was really happy. always looking 4wd to a day out w Luth & outings w him r seldom bored.
thanks Luth for de time, n yeah, u r still as childish as u were 16-yrs ago.

*missing my double-H*

good luck - SYF 2008

well, it will be just a short post. but it means a lot to the 2 persons who always hoping 4 my supports. but at least, I feel appreciated.

today, 22 April, Mr.Teacher.LH, who is in charge of International(modern) dance in de school he is teaching, will head a group of his talented students (P3-P6) who participated in de Singapore Youth Festival (SYF), to NUS Cultural Centre, where they'll perform for the SYF. this is de 1st time de school is taking part in International dance and LH; de teacher in-charge himself, is hoping 4 de best & of course, he is hoping 4 good result as well. he is determined 2 get de best result & has been preparing well w his students. they gave their fullest commitments, practising twice a week with each session lasted for about 2-hours. my credits 2 de kids as well for whole-heartedly engaging themselves despite de tight schedule and for info, today is their English Oral day as well. double prssure I guess. 2 de parents, thanks 4 de supports.
Good luck LH, Good Luck Kiddos. gold, silver or even bronze doesnt matter but what matter most is to give de best out of all of u ..

2ndly, 2 my lil prince charming; Hilmie, good luck 4 ur SYF (Instrument Essemble-Guitar) too. just like international dance, this is de 1st yr de Guitar students is given de chance 2 shine in SYF. Hilmie is 12 yrs, a sweet cousin of mine who is so attached to me all dis while. and I was so touched when he begged me 2 come down & watch his performance. even it is far at Republic Poly, I'll still make my trip there bcoz its worth my time. seeing him practising hard everyday amidst his preparation for mid-yr exam (and PSLE too), it really told me that he has a gr8 passion in this. as someone who he looked up as his own sis, I'll give my support 2 him, dats de only thing I can do 4 him. he really can play de guitar well.
good luck sweety, Anje will b there 4 u .. do ur best & make ur teacher proud of u. repay her faith in u throughout the years ..

till here thn, and to LH, sorry 4 not bein able 2 b there 2 support u. well, it clash with Hilmie's performance but I'm sure u'll understand ya. still remember ur words that night when we were at Vivo, "he is so attched to u & he needs u so much. for him, u r his saviour".
well LH, dat words of urs made me realised 2 appreciate de people around me more. I realised that they; the people who love me, may seldom express it out but deep in de heart, de feeling is strong.

thank u LH, u r my inspirations.

wonderful people

Mama :
she is having good times. I'm happy for bein able 2 provide her with a very comfortable life. not that luxurious, but more thn enough.. so far, I managed to fulfil her needs mostly though there r few is yet to be .. an irreplacable mum. love her to de max.
how can I not love her when she never stop loving me even how bad I'm & 4 ur info, my clothes are stil ironed by my mum. SERIOUS. only once in a while thn i'll iron my own clothes. every time when I wanna eat, she'll get it ready COMPLETELY for me. nah, I'm nt bein a princess but thats de way she treat me; her only daughter.

Lil prof :
getting naughtier frm day 2 day. its normal i guess for a boy like him. enjoying school a lot but doesnt have much interest in study though. need 2 b pushed thn he'll start to study. very active, non-stop playing whnver he has de chance to. I just love him more n more. I know he badly wanna kick de ball again but, hmmm .. all due to his poor result in de test his teacher just conducted recently. he enjoys dancing so much nwadays ;p

Double 'H' :
his holiday is going to end soon. n I shall say I'm going to miss him so much. but I really enjoyed de time we spent together. so come back regular ya, even its only over de weekend. it'll b more thn enough rather thn nothing. take care.

Mr. Teacher, LH :
thanks 4 ur time. anyway, u looked good just now. somethg different :-). so I guess I can no longer call u 'gorgeous' ? ok kidding. hehe .. u know what, since knowing this teacher who also is my lil prof dance instructor, I dislike friday bcoz it means I'll not see this teacher for 2-days & will only b back on monday. what is so special bout this teacher? he is different from all the men I'd known, including double-H. a guy like him is rare. I dont know how shall I elaborate more but he is so special & dat speciality always make me longing for him day in and out.
de sweetness in him is hard 2 get & I never see it on any guy-frens of mine before, even in my bestie (Luthfie). and that makes him, once again, SPECIAL. and IRRESISTIBLE.


I need 2 end here though I'm reluctant, but suddenly headache strucked me .. and I'm feeling pretty tired. will be back bloggin soon. n to other wonderful people I didnt mention here, please, no ill feeling(s) ya. next time it could be ur turn.

*welcome back, bro*

at last

yes! it is like a surprise, I woke up at 8.30 this morning. haha, it is sthg really rare in my life WHEN I'm not having class or teaching. Mama was like, surprised too seeing me freshly awake when she returned frm market.
I doesnt have any class to attend dis week but do have few teachings to be done.

well, I managed to pull myself away from my laptop a lil early last night. I used to stick infront of it till 3-4am but last nyte, I got myself off at 12.30am. I'm proud of myself. at least I made some effort to lessen my time I spent infront of it.
Mama has been nagging on me not having enough sleep which lead me 2 slack around 4 de whole day (though I'm nt a lazy bum, it did happened several times before). look at my eyes, and it'll show u that I'm lacking of sleep. :-)

great question I received from my high-school teacher:
"are you doing sthg u really want to or u r bein forced to do so?"
she was referring to my studies.
my reply was:
yeah of course I'm doin sthg that I want & love to do, no 1 forced me to take up this specialisation. my parents never once they forced me to take up this or that, they always said:
"take up sthg that u really have interest in & that will give u a secured future. we'll always support u".
that is what I've been hearin since I got my O-lvl result, in 2003. they are very supportive. they never set any target for me & never make any decison for my future. they let me 2 control it fully bcoz they know that their only daughter knows what is best for her. :-)

teaching has been my interest long time ago. and that is de reason y I chose teaching as a career. people need to know a teacher does not only teach, but also inspire. teaching is not only about explaining, marking, setting exam papers, etc. u need to have lots of patience & passion. no patience, there is no way u going to b able 2 handle all those students wisely. no passion, u'll not have any determination 2 c ur students succeed. if u become a teacher but w/o these 2 qualities, it is de same like a malay proverb "melepaskan batuk di tangga".

another factor why I'm trying 2 have enough rest & sleep is, due to my resposibility I'm holding when taking up Sports Science (psychology, physiotheraphy & wellness). it demand my fullest attention & require me to work overtime in order for me to complete my assingments & researches.
so Mama believes that with sufficient rest, I'll b able 2 produce better works which lead me 2 get a better grade. I need to agree w her on this bcoz I fall sick easily when I dont have enough rest/sleep & it is so hard 2 recover. just recently, I took about 2-weeks to recover from flu as during that perios, I didnt have any proper rest except for 2-or-3 days.
so when I'm already sick, I couldnt give my fullest attention & get distracted easily. at de end, I put aside my works.

I shall end here, n I hope my mission will succeed. :-)

*bro.smiley, take gd care of urself in Male, remember what I told u ya*

April-ian Babies ..

wah! so many people I know (be it in person or just 'gitu-gitu aje') celebrating their birthday in de month of April. & yeah, April's babies r sooo wonderful & beautiful people.
friends, family members & also de superstars (hehe de footballers i mean)..


2nd Apr : Hassan Abdullah Sunny (wished)
hope he'll keep on his gd form dis season w de stags & yeah, lil Izat stil adore u as much as he used to when u were at geylang.

9th Apr : my Cuzie (maternal), Ramdhan (wished)
Happy 17th Bday sweetheart. how fast u'd grown up. i still remember when u were still a baby, ur saliva dropping non-stop & u went everywhere wearing ur 'songkok' even when u were wearing shorts. now, U'd transformed into a very handosme young man with great appearance. Anje (that what all my family members call me) will always hope 4 de best in u.

15th Apr : Bro Alex (orang kuat Suria ni ;p) .. (wished)
stay cute always & succeed in whatever thing(s) u land ur hands on

17th Apr : Mustafic Fahrudin (wished)
u are having a gd season so far, playing like a lion so keep on peforming well for both club & country, Mr.Hottie. we seldom catch up w each other nwadays but u'l still have my support.
and yeah, I wanna see ur junior soon!! when can I be de god-mom? :-)

17th Apr : Md Luthfie, my bestie of 16 years a.k.a de wanton king !! (wished)
have a merriest b'day dear friend, knowing u really never once I regretted. a friend in need and a friend indeed. u were always there when I was sad & happy, n still there till now. we shared joys & sorrows n still sharing till this v seconds. people misjudged us, thinking we are a pair of lover but they never know what we actually are, what we are sharing are much more worthy thn a love-boat. we exchanged our first 'HI' since our 'hingus' day in 1992 when we were in de same class at de kindergarten. never I thought we are going to be dis close & attached. when u claimed that u r de only guy who know me de best, I couldnt deny that. u r ABSOLUTELY right. thanks for de friendship, thanks for de loves & concerns. thanks for everythg coz my words will never end when it comes to u, dear friend. lets wait for our pending party ya ;p


19th Apr : Aliff Shafaein (wished)
hey old fren! happy born-day. such a pleasant 'lil guy' 2 haf around as a fren .. this is de time 4 u 2 prove all de critics wrong & repay de faith of ur coach has in u .. time 4 u 2 shine Shafaein! will always support u though we seldom see each other nwadays.
stay cute always, Mr.Cili Padi. (mcm kenal kan nama) ;p

26th Apr : Zulfadli Zainal Abidin (wished)
aww! this hot 'LIL' bro of mine .. haha yah he is little to me as he is 2-yrs younger thn me .. Happy Bday Sweety. nice 2 know u since ur days at Tampines. never I expected to get so many 'baby bro' during ur time there. Memories live forever, am I right? may u succeed in ur football-ing career & it is my wish to see u develop into a classy defender & wear de senior lions jersey 1 fine day. maybe U can b de next Noh Rahman? well, nothing is impossible. de main thing is to believe in urself & put faith in urself. I am so proud of u. be a gd son yah, and I'm sure Uncle Zainal is so proud of u.

searching for answer

I'm havin sleepin problem, AGAIN. I hate it especially when monday is knocking, it means another 5-days of busy periods & I need sufficient rest. why is it happening?

I have been thinking bout things between me & double'H' pretty much dis lately. there is nthg wrong btween de 2 of us but at times, it is hard 2 understand him. we've known each other for bout 3+ yrs. n only recently, we get damn close. seriously I was nt ready for a new relationship de moment he asked me on it. I didnt know, WTH I was like, I agreed to get close w him. de sailing is no longer as smooth as it used to be when we were stil friends, nowadays many rough patches r waiting.

double'H' is really unpredictable. I dont deny that he is among 1 of de good gentlemen I'd met but his emotion management is v poor. some lil things could b big in his eyes, n that really annoyed me.

since de early days we know each other, he was already well-informed that my life is surrounded with many wonderful guys. honestly, 3 out of 4 bestie of mine, are guys. so I hang out with them a lot! n 1 of de guys is someone I really treasure, a friend of 16 yrs; Luthfie. he means a lot to me. we were childhood sweetheart but now, there is no more 'lovey dovey' feelings between us. if there is love, it is a love of 2 best friends who had shared many tears & joys 2gether under whatever circumstances. I dare 2 say, he is de only guy who knows me close to 100%. so there is no way I'll throw him out of my life. the friendship I share with him is irreplacable while de love boat which just started to sail with double'H' is unstable.

I'm not a demanding person. I seldom demand anythg, I seldom ask for anythg nor order u 2 do anythg. I 'm happy enough when u r bein urself but, I really need ur understanding. I need u in my life, but they are equally important too.

I'm glad that u always willingly hang-out w me & my bestie, get along well with them but what I couldnt bear is, de outcome of it. that is when u started 2 nag, ur curiousity came w/o invitation(s), n at de end we quarelled. that is what I need de least. quarelling really add more headache.

I'd told u frm de beginning, I'm not perfect nor a good girl. I have my bad sides which are not easy 2 b thrown away. just like u who have few habits that u hardly put away. so I'm not asking 4 anythg xcept for 1,

PLEASE UNDERSTAND ME.

y must they hate u, bro?

confused. depressed. angry.

I was thinking of Bro.Smiley's fate be4 went to sleep. I just couldnt close my eyes. nvr once I thought he'll face all this cruelty. seeing him in this situation really painful, I felt de pinch in my heart. even Mama felt de pain too, she always stood up for him. though he is nt my real bro, i treat him like my own while Mama treat him like her own son. I know he is not perfect nor de most skillful, but people, he is not as bad as what all of u think. is there REALLY a need to shoot him with all de booings & bad words? how u expect him to perform when all of u; his team very own supporters, were booin him like mad monkeys? where could he get some sense of assurance when de own fans boo-ed him?

tears nearly roll down my cheeks upon hearing all that, it was not de 1st time, I've been hearing it 4 so many times. but, adding to de pain in my heart was, HIM;HIMSELF, xpressed it out to me. upon reading the msg, my heart shattered. a msg frm a guy, who is turning 28 later this yr, which sounded really down. gone all de confidence, what left is only morale which is shattering into pieces. seriously, I was down too.

I sense something is not right here, and he couldnt go on like that. I dont want him to get worsen. I'm learning sports' psycho, so I know & understand (even not as much as de 1 who is facing) how de feeling is. if he keep dwelling, it'll harm him more. he'll not get better & that is my worst fear. I msg him, giving him some encouragements, n that is what he really needs at this moment, 2 make him keep going. at least, he felt lil better after expressing out.

for de meantime, I'll pray 4 de best for him but prepared for de worst as well. I'll always b there whnver possible & for me 2 stop supporting him, NEVER !!

*Bro, remember this, when there is no others on ur side, u always have this sister of urs*

stags thrashed white swans

once again, it was a last mins plan by double'H', this time round 2 watch tampines rovers' match. I was like, duhh! this guy is really a last mins person, at times, he could gimme a heart-attack with his antique. so i called my bestie-s if they would like to join. Wak Achan & Aida couldnt make it so left w Luthfie who is always b there for Tampines, a big fan of de stags indeed! though he is staying in Jurong.

we reached de stadium bout 25 mins after de game started. Luthfie was already there (yeah, of course, he is staying just a walking distance frm de stadium). supposed to be we were nt late but due to double'H' 'EAGERNESS' to stop at de petrol kiosk for refilling, we were late!

de score was 1-1 when we arrived & upon bein told by Luthfie; my bestie of 16 yrs cum my childhood sweetheart, that Mustafic (Fariq as he is affectionately known by me & those who know him well) had scored, I was like 'double'H'', i wanna kill u! I missed to see he scored. haha, he is my fav 'BOY' in Tampines .. & yeah, double'H' was like "u can c de goal on fri on TV & I wonder y u still crazy over someone hubby".

Hah!! that irritate me to de max.. there is nthg wrong in me admiring him, not that I wanna steal him from his wife & thn, will b a diff story., *sigh*

double'H' has always having 'probs' when I mentioned Fariq. please la, he is my football hero ONLY.

Tampines played well & much better frm de prev matches where they looked very disjointed. but on monday night, they were different. they were playing like true heroes, just like how they used 2 play in past season. Fariq really played well, brave like a lion. he scored 1 more goal during de later stage of de match; Tampines 6th goal of de night.

de other 4 goals were frm QiuLi(2), Aliff & an own goal. Albirex Niigata solitary goal was frm Tetsuya Okayama.

Albired took de lead early in de match but de lead was soon cancelled out & ended loosing 1-6. what a thrash.

went home soon after de match ended. was in no mood to go 4 supper due 2 de early argument w double'H'. he drove me back home (haha, i thought of taking cab but I have a strong sense of symphathy so I forgor my nonsense).

when I was about to put lil professor to sleep, I received an SMS, from him. ya, its HIM. he stated in de SMS "i still c de love in ur eyes, even after we broke-off 6 mths ago. dont deny & dont cheat urself. de feeling is still there & it is mutual".

to HIM, whom I know will read this, please stop that. I hate hearing that. it just make de healed wound bleed again. I'd enough of u, & even if it is true like what u claimed, there is no way 4 us to be together again. de situation we are in wont let us 2 be together. please realise that.

and yeah, I mean it WHOLE-HEARTEDLY when I said I'd enough of sportsmen. u tried 2 argue but u'll never understand, i went thru it, n i felt de pain. not once, but thrice failed relationship with sportsmen.

deep in my heart, u r still my friend which I treasure a lot. we are nt meant to be a lover forever, but friends forever is a possibility. u must know that.

*I had a break to 7-11 while typing this post. I was craving for siewmai* :-)

argghh!

good morning! its monday again, how fast time flies .. I'm lookin 4wd for a gd week ahead. it is 7+ plus in de morning, n I have nt sleep yet. my sleeping pattern has been kind of weird in de past few days.

de flu bugs seem to 'LOVE' me lots la .. has been nearly 2-weeks & it still lingering around me ;p .. I hate bein sick. it makes me feel uncomfortable & everythg I do will nt turn out well. I'd seen de doctor twice so is de 3rd visit really needed? Nah, I'd enough. :-)

despite bein sick, my daily activities were carried out as usual. watching football, chilling w my bestie & yeah, shopping! went shopping at de John Little & Popular Bookstore mega sale @ de S'pore Expo. hehe, went there twice, on thursday & sunday. de atmosphere on de 2 days were TRULY different. i could shop & browse around with comfy & at ease on thurs but on sunday, I was like, duhh! it was very crowded.

bought shoes & bed linen (i'm crazy of it) from John Little & some books frm Popular. I bought more stuffs for my lil professor, hehe, there were lots of things for him on offer. so why not take de chance when u have it.. bought for him few shirts, bermudas as well as few revision books (he always forget his study time).

got nthg much 2 say in this post, just a random 1 :-)

i wanted to summarise HomeU match against de Yg.Lions but I'm not in de mood 2 review de game due to certain reason. but I'll b back with de review for de game against Sengkang Punggol (awww!) on de weekend as i cant b there for de next match against woodlands on wednesday.

*I'm still waiting PATIENTLY for that 'EXCLUSIVE' 1st goal of urs, bro!*

belated post

supposed to post this entry earlier but due to my busy schedule & also my sick days, it was delayed. anyway, happy 24th birthday to Hassan Sunny on 2nd of april. may u have a gd year ahead, bro.

i went to watch tampines rovers' match on tues night at de woodlands stdm. i used to attend their match REGULARLY but dis season, it is a diff story :-) this match was only de 2nd time i came 2 c them in action.

i have many reasons for no longer supporting them as regular as i wished, it was nt easy for me 2 stop supporting them after nearly 5-yrs of supporting. half of me is in de team & de team had given me many sweet memories, not forgetting that I made many friends frm de team. but, i need to move on .. i dont want 2 c anythg more that may bring heart-break to me. I'd enough.

it was raining realy heavily that night till de match was started 15 mins late. nt really interesting match though, but clearly Tampines was nt sharp in front of goal. they missed many gr8 chances but thats football. :-) de match ended 1-1 (goal frm de young star a.k.a super sub Ahmed Fahmie while woodlands' goal was frm Lucian Dronca). woodlands scored a really beautiful goal. what a curl!

at de end of de match, I'd a fight with 1 of de player's GF, she is a real slut! i cant 'tahan' with her .. finding fault with me w/o any logical reason! sorry la gal, u r not my match, u r not in de same class as me. U r still new & raw in this arena while I've been here for more thn 5 yrs. i know everythg bout u while u know nthg bout me. just ask urself, what did u do to win ur BF's heart? hah, so cheap!

i wouldnt blame u fully since u r much younger thn me, n i'm sure u r nt matured yet. what to do .. but seriously, i wont keep my mouth shut if u provoked me. and dont play with fire if u dont dare to bear de consequence. u dont know yet what I'm capable of. so, u better watch out & be careful with ur steps.

ESPS annual sports' meet

friday afternoon i went to tampines stdm with Mama & Izat. for de anuual sports' meet of ESPS. there was no formal lesson on that day due 2 this event. Izat didnt take part as it was for de kids frm P3-P6, but we stil came down 2 lend our support & of course, I was willingly to come, all bcoz of him; de teacher who stole my heart, who makes me longing for him day in & out.

furthermore, we are part of ESPS, as Mama is a volunteer for de Parents' support group.

de event kicked-off with a mass workout lead by 3 teachers (including de charming ever, Mr.Lukman Hakim). it was a routine workout because that is common 'starter' in most of ESPS events. de workout is always accompanied with music & this time round, with Rihanna song as tune. yeah, ESPS look serious in promoting healthy lifestyle. WATCH DE VIDEO I ATTACHED, a must watch!

de game went well , de cheers from de kids as well from de supportuve teachers, de principal too & also de parents, whom among them took a day off from de work just bcoz of their kids. it was a wonderful event, where all of us cheered in 1 voice, just like 1 big family.

holistic education, that what de principal of ESPS always emphasised, & I shall say it is good for nowadays life & ESPS had succeed in promoting this.

haha, 1 thing that commonly couldnt avoid in any events, technical glitch.

at de end of de day, de green house emerged champion while de red house (Izat's house) came as runner-up, followed by yellow and blue house.

yeah till here, will b back soon :-)