A Mother's Love

I love my Mama, & of course she loves her only daughter.

I'll turn 22 later this yr, but I'm still a lil girl at heart. i always crave for my Mama's attentions & loves. I'm glad that i never lack of them. Mama showered me all her loves, concerns & attentions. A mother's loves are irreplacable, de purest love ever.

just recently, when i was having high fever, she took care of me whole-heartedly. she made sure that I have my proper meals & take my medicines punctually. while i was sleeping, she checked on me regularly, worrying that i might need her. she didnt have proper sleep at night just to attend to me, to make sure my temperaute is in control. i was really touched by that. n i realised, i couldnt survive w/o her. i never imagined how my life going to be if she is nt around. I've been always close to her since i was a kid.

I dont deny that I'm not a perfect/filial daughter. I have my bad sides. i admit that i cheated Mama before (I regretted it lots but ..), I was rude to her before, I ignored her warnings/advices. there were things which I'd done that hurt her. Mama, pls know that I never mean 2 do it purposely & never i want to hurt u. But I'm just a normal human being. still, of all behaviour/attitude of mine that I showed to her, she still love me unconditionally, w/o any barrier. I always try to fulfil de promise I made to myself that is not to make Mama angry & not to hurt her. but my 'IDIOT-ical NONSENSE' still happen for couples of time.

beside that, I know Mama is really pleased & proud of me. I'm her only daughter which mean I'm de only hope she has to rely on. academically, I dare to say I'm on my journey to succees. I'd covered 3-quarter of de journey & it left with another quarter which is for me to fulfil with excellence. I'm going to b an educator & at de same time living my dream in a field which I have lots of passion in it. that is Sports' Psychology. never once I imagined I'm goin to be an educator coz since young, I always dreamt of being a lawyer. till now, I'm still wondering why I didnt master this field. But, I'm grateful of what I'm having now.

The bond btween me & Mama became tighter after she divorced. I was her pillar of strength during that difficult period. I was sitting for my O level back thn when the problem started to occur. i suffered double pressure. de usual quiet, soft-spoken & gentle me turned to an aggressive & outspoken teen. i behaved that way just to protect Mama, I didnt want Dad 2 hurt her more. I never thought that Dad would do that to us, to think back that we were a very happy family. a small & close-knitted family. but things can change in split-seconds. Dad left us for that B-I-T-C-H. Dad showered his loves on her 2 kids while we were left stranded & clueless w/o a leader in de family, w/o a father-figure. Dad gave all his concerns to them when we deserved it the most. Dad, dont u realised that I'll b de one who gonna take care of u when u grow old & de 1 who'll attend 2 ur needs when u r helpless. is it too hard for u to understand? Mama suffered de greatest blow but I suffered too. Dad, I love u sooo much though I seldom express. though I never show any emotions but that doesnt mean I hate u. I dont deny, de scar from ur deeds was still there, de pain still 'visiting' when memories fly back, but to hate u forever I will not. Mama always reminded me "he is stil ur Dad even how bad he is. forgive him". I'd forgiven u but please, play ur role as a Dad more. I demand that.

6 yrs on since de crisis, Mama had come to term. accepting de fact that their marriage was nt meant to last forever. I still can c de pain in her eyes but I'm sure she is coping well & better nowadays. de blow she recieved was really brutal. Mama is much a stronger woman now & she always there for me when I need her. she puts in interest in what I like such as watching soccer (an activity which I used to do with Dad). Lil Izzat really brighten her life, and my life as well. he cured our wounds.

Mama, no one can ever replace u in my life. you are my greatest love.